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Paradox

I've always been told how I'm too quiet. But then people shush me when I talk.

I've always been told I'm too much of a doormat. A people pleaser. But some think I'm too bold and rude.

I've always been told how I'm so smart. But I'm the dumbest person I've ever met.

I've always been told I care too much about everything. But apparently I can't bring myself to care enough. I'm too selfish.

I've always been told that I don't use my full potential. That I don't give my best. But when I do, I'm a ‘try-hard’. Pretending to be something I'm not.

I've always been told I'm pretty. But those words ring hollow when I look at myself in the mirror and only see the ugliness. Nothing but flaws.

I've always been told I'm a good friend. But then people choose to leave me. I'm left alone.

“But you're never alone,” people say. “We will always be with you.” But the loneliest I feel is when I'm in a room full of people.

I've always been told “I love you”. I've stopped believing those words, because I feel like the most unlovable being on the planet. “Love” feels like a mockery.

I'm too much. Not enough. I'm a paradox.

People tell me I'm bursting with life. Too bad I'm dead inside.

Curiosity

You always greeted me with a smile

Asked me how I was, how my day was going

I smiled back and told you I was fine

But I think you knew I was lying

Because my smile never quite reached my eyes

The way yours always seemed to do

And sometimes the words came out flat

Like I never really believed them

You were always the curious cat

You poked and prodded till I gave in

I resisted a lot, putting up walls

But you broke them right down

But curiosity has a heavy price

You couldn't handle what you saw

The expanse of my damage was unfathomable

Too much for you to stomach

You quickly tried to backpedal

But the damage was done

In your hurry you stepped on my heart

Which was already broken, and now crushed

The horrors of my soul were too much for you to bear

And I can understand why it was so

Because I've lived with them this long

And you never got a chance to get used to them like I did

You abandoned the shattered pieces of my heart

I tried to pick them up and mend them

But the jagged edges just cut me deeper

And left me bleeding once again

They say curiosity killed the cat

But it wasn't you who died

It was the endless possibilities that we could have had

And I was left with the ghost of what could have been

Maybe it's better this way

You'll be safe now, away from me

But the fact that hurts the most is that

Your curiosity was what led us to our demise