i need more people to write soap as a math and science genius
like he is a human calculator. gaz shows it off as a party trick even though soap is the one actually doing something. like
“oy, look what my mate can do- soap, c’mere!”
and soap, who has done this a thousand times before, walks over.
“ok, ok- someone ask him a math problem. like- literally anything.”
someone gaz is talking to goes “uhh… seven radical three times the square root of nine,” and soap blinks a few times, stares at the ceiling for a moment, his fingers flick around a little, and about ten seconds later he says “forty-five thousand three hundred and sixty.”
and someone pulls out a calculator and goes, “holy shit, he’s right!”
and soap is just like “are you done now?” so that he can finally go back to shamelessly hitting on his lieutenant.
And the world will crucify me for being the man I wish to be.
They see a child lost in the war of the world
They see a monster destroying the body of a beautiful little girl.
I'm not 7 anymore.
And I've always known what I am
I'm a man, forced to grow up in a life others made me live.
And I will always be a man.
You can rip the skin from my body, and strip me of my bones
But I'll always know
You can suffocate me and cover my mouth as I scream out
But I'll always know.
And you'll always know, what I am.
You can fight me every step of the way, but I'm still a man
Your words mean nothing to me.
If they bury me in a grave with a headstone of the little girl they think I am.
I'll claw my way out of the wood and soil
I'm not a little girl
I was never a girl
I'm not 7 anymore
I'm not 12
I'm not 15
Im me
And I'll always be me.
And I'm a man.
I will cry until I can't anymore
And when they try to drown me in my own tears
I'll kick and scream
I refuse to go silently the way they want me to
I'm a man
And I will never be the little girl they wanted.
I FEEL LIKE IM BETRAYING MY CRYPTO ROOTS BY ACTUALLY BEING REALLY GOOD AS MIRAGE .... Im still a crypto main i promise (this is just the rare couple times my buddy hasn't been playing mirage)
So i feel it's ironic that almost all my clips of me playing apex and doing something cool af is as mirage. Yet my main is Crypto and I have ZERO clips of me doing something with him. Mirage and Crypto suit my playstyle so god damn well. Like yet let me fuck over the entire enemy team in the most annoying ways possible. I need to get more crypto clips. Here's a mirage clip for example.
This took an hour to convert to a jpg file! Buttttttt here's the bad boy I randomly drew for my coworker out of boredom, so like goobers anyone!
141 showers 🚿🫧
full here
My only true headcanon when I write John Walker is: he's a total bottom. Didn't realize it until after Bob walked into his life. Divorced guy loves taking it, often, and in as many positions as they can manage. Totally unapologetic about it too.
rb to have an ultra gay 2024
Happy birthday to me and here's some drawings
The fact I've felt deeply alone as a trans man who acts "oddly" is hard to deal with. I'm just another dude, but suddenly I'm not queer enough because my hair isn't dyed! But I'm suddenly to feminine because I paint my nails. It's like I don't fit in anywhere in the queer community!!! Every queer space I've ever been in has always excluded me as a transman because I'm not enough to them! It's beyond frustrating to have to explain my every breath to people, especially other queer people who should understand!!!! I've recently been trying to come to terms that I may be bisexual and so many people have been telling me as a transman I either have to be straight or gay, that suddenly me being trans means I can't be queer in another way. It's depressing. I shouldn't have to even label myself if I don't want to! But I'm not enough of a man to others apparently!??! Even when I enter queer spaces I'm excluded and often ignored because I'm the only transman around for miles!!!!!
trans men & mascs are constantly in a damned if you, damned if you don't state of being when it comes to finding community with other queer folk. if we dress "too masculine" and pass for cis men, we are too threatening, we "scare" the women and (feminine) nonbinary folks. if we are "too feminine" and have long hair, wear makeup, have ""feminine"" hobbies, dress in feminine clothing, etc. we are constantly harassed for not being "Real men" and people literally proudly misgender us.
there's no way to win if people keep shifting the goalposts on purpose so they don't have to accept that trans men exist and are just as varied and complex as anyone else when it comes to identity and presentation.