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*Skinny Reasons-~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

1. Bikinis. Imagine soft sun on your skin, eyes following every move, admiration, envy, power.

2. Tans that mean something. Bronze skin only glows when there's a body worth showing.

3. Belly rings. Silver glint on flat skin. No rolls, no shame, just sparkle and softness.

4. High-waisted dreams. Shorts that don't dig in, crop tops that kiss your ribs, denim hanging loose like they were made just for you.

5. To be the skinny friend. The one they whisper about, the one they copy but can never become.

6. Control. Every skipped meal is proof you’re stronger than your urges.

7. Thigh gaps. Delicate space between your legs, the kind that only girls in magazines seem to have.

8. Boys looking twice. Not out of pity. Out of want.

9. Aesthetic everything. Oversized sweaters, low-rise jeans, silk skirts with nothing clinging.

10. Mirror peace. No more war with your reflection. Just soft pride in quiet bone lines.

11. Fragile beauty. The kind that looks effortless. Ethereal. Breakable. Wanted.

12. Revenge body. Every second of silence, of rejection, turned into something worth staring at.

13. Photos you don’t have to hide from. No more angles, no more edits.

14. To feel light. Physically, emotionally. To float in rooms instead of shrinking in corners.

Low calorie breakfast today

Whole grain flapjacks - 180

Tbsp of vanilla yogurt - 16

Blueberries - 15

Total= 211

Diet culture is so fucking disgusting. I'm googling recommended calories intakes trying to figure out how short I'm falling and every fucking website I'd want to use to calculate how many calories I really need is all fucking "CALORIE DEFFICIANT!!! LOOSE WEIGHT FAST" "RECOMMENDED CALORIES TO LOSE WEIGHT" "CALORIE WEIGHT LOSS CALCULATOR"

If I lose any more, I'm gonna be having fainting spells and shit. I'm literally eating an 8th of what I should be. I love being a chef, but it doesn't leave much room to really enjoy any food.

My face is way too skinny, I'm all sunken and shit. I'm cold all the time, I'm bitchy and I'm constantly exhausted. And I'm so anxious about how little I eat it's stopping me from eating. My house is full of food, but there's no dishes, and im too tired to clean anything. And being that this is America all my food is fuckin garbage anyway, none of it has real nutrients or shit.

I'm literally crying cause ive lost so much weight and I don't know how to replace it. I'm gonna have to overhaul my entire lifestyle to accommodate more meals and build habits and it just sounds like so much fuckin work.

Everyone wants what they don't have, I guess.