Mini Rant - Blog Posts

Thinking about how many times the workers for Stranger Things musta put out roles with the description "Very important to the plot. Dies immediately". Or just for "random character who dies". Very amusing.

that one time that I got so pissed at cartman in a South Park character ai 😭😭

Small rant ahead:

The may contain label is bs. So much bs.

Like way to make eating Russian roulette.

It can mean:

-there is part of this in this

-there is a small amount of this in this

-this shares contact but is not an ingredient

-we did not feel like paying attention so we are covering our bases

-this has this in it but we don’t feel like specifying where in the ingredients

-we don’t know what’s in our product and because we buy certain things premade and don’t feel like looking into it

THIS IS NOT A GAME THIS IS LIFE OR DEATH FOR SOME PEOPLE

So quick rant

My parents don't raise children the raise adults. Now on the surface it doesn't sound to bad, until you realize that it means the we have never been children. We have been adults since the first moment we could be. We had to mature fast take care of our selves and siblings as soon as we could. We never where children.

The fact that I’m not diagnosed with autism fucking sucks. Like, many people have told me they think I have autism, including my therapist but because my mother will not even put me on the wait list for a diagnosis I won’t know for at least two years if I am autistic (probably more then two years). All because my mom doesn’t believe I’m autistic.

All because she doesn’t understand, I don’t get the support I need. The closest I get to feeing validated is my best friend saying that she is there for me and that she believes me. This is hard.

I need help to function properly but no one will help me. I can’t do so many things that people my age should be able to. I can’t get my license because I’m too scared to drive alone because I zone out a lot and don’t think I could process everything. But my dad keeps pressing me to get it.

I can’t do everything all the time. I am supposed to swim for 2 hours four days a week but I can’t do that. I have to lie to my mom and tell her I’m sick so I can stay home because she doesn’t let me take mental health days ever.

I can’t have a social life because I can’t hang out with anyone for more then 30 minutes except my QPP.

I don’t understand social situations so when I try to understand and make a mistake people get mad at me.

I need help with taking care of myself because it’s to much for me to do alone but my mom isn’t willing to help.

My mom refuses to keep my comfort foods in the house because I “eat them to fast”

No one believes me when I tell them my problems. At school it’s because I have good grades. My mom doesn’t believe me because I “ function well.”

I’m always tired because I have to mask so often around my family so they don’t say I’m faking it

And worst of all is that despite all of that and more, I might not even be autistic. If I’m not autistic what’s wrong with me?

It’s been a while, y’all.

I’m in that twilight zone between graduation and graduate school. So applying for jobs is like: Hi I want to work for you but only for like a year so hope you don’t hate me. 

Luckily, there is going to be a graduate school fair near me soon so I can talk to actual humans in person about my choices. 

Just had to get that out there. Love y’all and hope whatever kind of day you’re having gets better!

Debunking the 'Stolas does not actually like Blitz' argument that for some reason, I keep hearing.

So someone on this damn app really tried it , and I feel the need to respond.

First off , Stolas having feelings for Blitz has been hinted at since Loo Loo land ( inviting I.M.P to Loo Loo Land to spend time with Blitz , because as we all know he can very well defend himself) so, his behavior in this episode is not 'ooc'. We are simply seeing his feelings for Blitz expressed in a different environment (aka , no sex, just a date)

Second of all , Stolas didn't hide his face out of embarrassment for being with Blitz, he hid his face because his whole family business was aired out. Stolas has flirted with Blitz publicly and (in this same ep) agreed to go to a public club with him, despite their statuses. He's not ashamed of being with an Imp.

Third of all, Stolas does his best to try and comfort Blitz after what happened , but Blitz rejects it ( as he has the right to). OP said that Stolas 'doesn't really like Blitz' because he 'didnt argue further or tell Blitz that he wants more than sex' but really, Stolas has the sense to know when to leave it be. Up to now, we as the audience are meant to know Stolas has feelings for Blitz, but he made it hard for himself by only being sexual with Blitz up to this point. However, that doesn't mean Stolas has no feelings for Blitz, it means he doesn't know how to act on them or communicate them properly.

I MEAN THIS IN THE LEAST PROBLEMATIC WAY POSSIBLE BUTTTT

I'm sick and tired of ppls only excuse of why you should not ship ppt characters is "BECAUSE THEY'RE CHILDREN WE SHOULDN'T BE SHIPPING CHILDREN" especially if it's under a post of the cartoon version of them.

LET ME CLEAR SOME THINGS UP!!

People can be young and in love. Though I don't EVER think any poppy playtime bigger body ship would work out except for maybe kissy & doey or mommy long legs & miss delight(not so sure about that last one)

And yeah, you're right, depending on context. I don't think toured children are thinking about love rn( coming from someone who has mostly cartoon ppt ships)

What also makes me upset is how I only find these types of comments under ships involving doey, catnap, or dogday. But when it comes to mommy long legs, miss delight, huggy or kissy, it's just fine

My point is if you're gonna make an excuse, make it different. PLEASE

Mushoku tensei was legit one of the most messed up and disgusting shows I've ever seen. I managed to get through three episodes before quitting, it made me legitimately ill. Isekai has so much potential for meaningful storytelling and I hate how it's all just "basic mcblandboy: reborn into a world of teenage powerfantasy and pedophilia."

I hate how every season we get several shitty power fantasy isekais for the bros to jerk off to that are basically just “reincarnated dude is not strong until he suddenly is by the end of episode 1 also he has like 43 girls in his harem one of them is an actual child and the other is a cat girl and they all wanna bang him bc ofc they do” like come on😭😭😭😭 if you gonna release something shitty at least release a knk anime 😭😭😭

I think I hate people because on my fic about Sirius struggling with societal norms and wanting to dress feminine but not wanting to be perceived as weird I explicitly stated TWICE that he wasn’t trans (in that fic) and somebody STILL commented about how it was a great female Sirius fic??? I’m so sorry are we illiterate? Are we dumb? What happened? I literally told you he’s a cis guy. He made a big deal out of it. It’s a fic about how society puts people into boxes based on appearance and he didn’t want people to do that. Where do I go wrong? Did they just not read part of the fic? Did they just close their eyes? It was literally tagged as “boys in skirts” what do you mean female Sirius???

I mf-ing hate capes

im pulling a fucking edna rn i swear, but i could rant about this for so long you dont know.

like WHAT PURPOSE DO THEY SERVE????? IT DOES NOT MAKE SENSE??? THE ONLY THING THEY´LL DO IS GET YOU MURDERED.

AND DON?´T EVEN TRY SAYING LIKE “BUT IZUKU SAVED THE SMALL LITTLE BITVH WITH IT (I FORGOT HER NAME I READ THAT LIKE MONTHS AGO)” SO??? KEEP LIKE A SMALL CLOTH OR SMTH IN YOUR POCKET???? SAME THING.

THE ONLY CAPE/CLOAK THAT DESERVES TO LIVE IS THE ONE FROM DOCTOR STRANGE. THAT MF ACTUALLY SERVES PURPOSE, BEST CLOAK. WOULD RECOMMEND.

Hey can stereotypes just stfu, it may seem fun and all but when using stereotypes on people all you’re doing is devaluing them. Saying that they aren’t their own person, they’re not special, but instead they belong in a “group”. I personally think that applying it to fictional characters is fine as long as you don’t make it their ENTIRE fucking personality and do not encourage applying them to actual people.

Like “categorizing” someone with ADHD and just comparing them to other neurodivergents. All you’re doing is telling them that’s all they are. Just some kid who happens to be neurodivergent. And I hate that, I really do. Stop stereotyping in general. Quit it.

(Also if we could just not treat neurodivergent people so differently then others that’d also be cool because we’re literally humans too.)

Cole is problematic now?? I just found this out like an hour ago and im distraught. C2BC was basically- ok, it was- my comfort show and was something special to me. To find out now that cole has been acting this way is... So disappointing. Im so worried if the show will be canceld now, or if he will step away from the osc completely. I know many people also feel that way and even though its silly, i do wish you guys the best. Having something be your favorite thing, than getting it broken by a nasty creator is not a great feeling. Especially if it was a large majority of content you consumed. Like me, i can get overly stuck on something and when i lose it i get more upset then i probably should be. As it was my comfort show, and im sure it was many of yours aswell. And dont that that im only worried about the show. Im also worried about what has happened with cole and people hes affected. I wish them the best too. I do think cole's approach to this was immature, and i bet he couldve handled this better. I could talk forever, but i'll leave it at that. Again, i seriously wish you guys the best. I really dont how to feel. I think its grief? I guess im kinda in a state of shock.

By the way, I DO NOT support cole's actions. For right now, ( and until i process all this ) i am sepearating the creator from the creation. I still love C2BC but not cole. Had to get that out of the way, i dont want people thinking "i forgive him bc its my comfort show1!!11!" No. The (many) things hes done cannot be brushed off. And from my perspective, forgiven.

You probably wont see this but if you do and If you read this whole thing, thank you, and love to you. <3

Whats with the osc and having problematic people now? I swear every other show as SOME form of controversy.

Im so done with this community man.

Crashing out byeeee

EDIT: Ok, Ok, i just read the scripts of episode 14-19. The scripts were posted by yeartine on twitter (X) and i know someone on tumblr even posted them. Im honestly not sure if i like the direction it went or not. Maybe we see them as animated episode but who knows considering.. Yknow. Im still quite torn on wether i still want to consume conetnt from C2BC because of Cole.

Man I lowkey wished I didn’t make a New Year’s Resolution.

I don’t wanna do jack shit but draw my OTPs doing dumb and/or sexy shit together but I have classwork I need to get to, and my New Year’s Resolution was to get my shit together and not fail my classes.

Why must I have a life? I wanna do nothing at all..

zamindari was formally abolished in Bengal about 70 years ago but dudes will still seriously brag about being the "zAmiNdar hOuse's eldEst sOn"and these guys always turn out to be complete imbeciles. like nobody gives a rat's ass about you being a 'zamindar' back in your village home. y tf u so proud that your ancestors were feudal lords who exploited peasants???

Ikr

That fuck face

Can I have head pats im crying :(

Noooo, why are you crying?? :(

Here, have some head pats! We'll get you all happy and comfy in no time, I promise!

Tw rant and mention of suicide-

NOT IN A WAY THAT I'M SAYING I WANT TO DO IT

I hate my brain

I hate that I see my best friend spend more time with someone else and think they'll leave

This isn't a kms rant or anything I'm just tired of it, I miss hanging out with my friend and I hope he sees this if he goes on Tumblr more

When he sits with other people and talks to me less I feel like I did something wrong and I'm tired of my brain thinking this and I'm tired of thinking whatever he's doing is more important then I am.

Sorry for the rant I swear I don't usually do this i just needed to say it

Unfriendly reminder that (TAAO) BlastSlaught aka on/off is manipulative and unhealthy as hell, I doubt half of the people who ship that have read TAAO with half a brain cell’s worth of understanding or they’re just flat out weird because no way we read the same comic scenes.

Edit; maybe I’m a little hypocritical with some other things I personally ship but at least that stuff can be justified somehow. How can this?

Getting to the point where I am frothing at the mouth whenever I see an ad. Any ad, at all. Whether it is just hatred of ads in general, or hatred of ads as they stand currently, I am not completely certain, but it's definitely leaning further and further to the latter.

the only exercise i’ve done this week is run out of patience 🎀

math is going to drive me insane, i’ve got 7 chapters to revise and 0 will to live/study anymore 🥲

when does this end ☹️

i would’ve cried but honestly that’s so unproductive, i don’t have enough time or fluids in my body to be crying

anyways, back to math.

cya later loves,

💌

only 10 pm and it’s been nine hours of math, i might just pull an all nighter, bad idea since my exam is day after but the anxiety wouldn’t let me sleep anyway

i thought i’d study more but my brain is gonna turn to mush

i have 12 hour lectures from tomorrow onwards to revise my entire syllabus, i hope i make it through them.

i was supposed to revise what will be done tomorrow but my brain genuienly cannot comprehend any more information and i’m so scared this isn’t enough, looking at my friends preparing.

i’m thinking of getting some good amount of sleep tonight so i can make it through the next 10 days of grinding.

i’m so cooked.

i love ai i love neurosama i love watching people build algorithms and training them and watching them become more 'intelligent' i love watching simulations i love NPCs i love enemies tracking our hitboxes

i hate AI that trains off of things not meant for it it shouldn't exist i hate how things like chatgpt have scraped the internet for knowledge i hate how it has tainted the uniqueness and happiness AI brought to people now when people hear AI they think of chatgpt when in reality it could just be someone's algorithm resided on their pc that they built by themselves, trained on their own work, or coded by themselves

in short: fuck chatgpt not all ai is bad

I adore my algebra teacher she's so sweet and such a joy to be around but algebra is so mentally exhausting

I can get like 9 hours of sleep the night before, be perfectly fine during periods 1 & 2, but the moment we start math 3rd period, boom all systems shut down for the rest of the day

I like math too which is the worst thing about this what is up with this

Oh my gosh I had to reset my Face ID because it was being funky and I'm trying to access all my wips on the notes app but it's asking for a password and the hint it "my phone password" but it's not my current ones and I can't remember any of the old ones dude

I can never access any of those wips again I've been at it for like 10 minutes

I don't wanna make a big stink about my birthday but also I want people to know and make a big deal of my birthday does that make sense

My friend keeps telling me I should be getting leads in musicals but I'm not a good actor (she insists I am) and like half the club is a better singer than I (though I consider myself an okay singer)

Idk I wanted to rant about it because I think about it too often 🥀

Yall who follow my page remember when I posted like 10 times in a 24hr span because I was in a car for 24 hours straight right

So I was talking with my friends and we're talking about screen time for some reason so I show them my whopping 18 hours from that road trip (the rest of the week was <4 hr each day btw) and this kid chimes in with "you should really get your screen time under control"

I say "usually my screen time is much lower, I was just in a car for 24 hours straight."

He says "well yea but you should still get it under control"

I say once again "right but I was in that car for a full day with little else to do"

And he says once again "yea but you should still get that under control"

At that point it's becoming a back and forth that'll never end so I ignore him but like dude

It annoyed me quite a lot actually

Saw a post about both sets of twins' eye color in GF and it's had me thinking; I genuinely 100% thought that the Stan twins had blue eyes??

My thought has nothing to do with the blue eyes in The Last Mabelcorn (I don't remember those eyes anyways lmao) but wax Stan

Because if we look at wax Stan, he has blue eyes, does he not?

Unless Mabel said something about it, I'm pretty sure this is a fairly accurate model of Stan?? So wouldn't he and ford have blue eyes?

Idk chat I could be crazy

Edit: please lmk if I'm dead wrong here please