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so i’m actually ending it. he’s gonna be upset with me cause i relapsed. fuuuuckkkk.

dm if u want pics

what do you use for $h? (like razor blades, glass, ect)

i use the blades from razors, i think they work the best. i don’t use a specific brand or anything just what’s there yk

i swear i cannot be the only one who scrolls and looks at sh when i’m bored or when i’m eating

WAIT CAN I SEE THE CARVING I CANT DM BC I FORGOT TO CONFIRM MY EMAIL BUT IF U SEND IT I CAN STILL SEE GAHHH

GURLLL I DKNT WANNA GET T WORDED, i might put a filter on it if you want OR try to confirm your email

can y’all please please PLEASE ask me anonymous questionssss

i’m in school and i’m so boreddd

my man said he’s proud of me for not cvtting and said even if i do it’s okay because i’m trying but i reallyyyy don’t know what to do, i haven’t in a few days since i carved his name but i really want to, the urges are so strong but he’s gonna ask me why and a bunch of other shit (he’s studying psychology so he’s always on my ass” WHAT DO I DOOOO

stop y’all, i literally opened tumblr while on the school wifi and forgot they have certain things blocked and when i opened tumblr it showed the “this is usually your dashboard” SHIT AND I GOT SO SCAREDDDD

I DID IT!! DM IF YOU WANNA SEE

i love my man i would carve his name into me for him.

update- he wants me too 😛😛

i love my man i would carve his name into me for him.

i love all my girly pop moots except the only exception is @styro--boy

what is your favorite song, and also what is your favorite hobby to keep your mind busy? :D

ooo my favorite song would have to be “Someone Somewhere Somehow” by Super Whatevr

my favorite hobbies would have to be ice skating, talking to my man, and calling my friends

how was your day today??

my day was actually very shitty, i went to court, cried, did the ice bucket challenge, argued with my father, cried more, cried, called my man (😍), aaannnddd here we are. the highlight was definitely calling my man, thank you for askinggg

okay so my man wants me to stop cvvtting BUT IT TVRNS HIM 0N SO WHY WOULD I STOPPPP UGHHHH IM HAVING A DILEMMA

i was tryna cvt and my dad knocked on my door asking if we can talk cause we just had a really big fight. i hate getting interrupted istg

this is a little reveal i guess?? not necessarily a face reveal since you can’t see it but you get the idea <3

plz don’t be meannnn

do you got that dawg in you

i do got that dawg in me 🐺🐺🐺

update, i went with my parents and my father lied saying i’m lazy and it’s because of my phone that i don’t go AND said i ran away which is also a lie (he kicked me out) like mf that’s not true. but i have court ordered therapy because they hate me and are trying to take away my personality but when it was over when i was leaving the place my mom pulled me aside to talk abt smth and i started bawling my eyes out because he wasn’t believing me and was believing my father and basically just told me to and i quote “get your ass to school” like mfff

why are you going to court tomorrow (here because your post)

i have to go to court for truancy, i never go to school 😭

oopsiessss

PLEASE ASK ME QUESTIONS OR IM GONNA CRY

i love hitting styr0 multiple times in the same sesh

YALL I GOT T WORDED!!! MY LAST ACCOUNT WAS @trynabeproana

@pxppyboycy @someonezqt1 @styro--boy @fleshcollector @styrofoam-slic3r

IM SO SORRY YALL BUT IM BACK

being iced tf out by people who ‘care’ and ‘love me’ and ‘understand me’ even though they don’t care to see that i’m literally at the lowest point of my life!!!

fake ass mfs made a whole separate gc to chat shit about me when i’m currently sitting in my bathroom wondering how many cvts i deserve today

❝ why do i cry ? when i have my coffee . . . ❞

ughh , why am i getting jealous over random ppl on the internet ? they're ALLOWED to have friends , they're allowed to like other ppl — why am i so selfish ? it's so tiring seeing other ppl be close w each other . . . why can't i have that ? ik im not the easiet to love or be close w , but i try . ppl know i try , right ? ⸝⸝ ‹𝟹

ugh , it's not like i'd be able to get close w anyone . i can never seem to open up — or even try rlly . the urge to cvt has been so strong lately and i have no idea what to do abt it . i can't go to my step dad anymore — im 15 , i should be able to handle this on my own . ⸝⸝ ‹𝟹

fuck , i miss cvtting on my arms . i miss my friends , i miss having a purpose . ⸝⸝ ‹𝟹

what's the point anymore ? ⸝⸝ ‹𝟹

❝ . . . after you disappeared , it seems like almost a year . . ❞

❝ it's true , i know . . . ❞

todays been so rough for no reason , and the worse part is that ik it's my fault that i feel like this . i never reach out , i never go out , i js ruin myself and then complain abt ruining myself . ⸝⸝ ‹𝟹

idk , mayb i'll txt my friend and see if she wants to hang out this week . am i allowed to call her my best friend ? idk , we have before , but i rlly don't tell her shit when it comes to my mental stability — so does that mean i'm lying to her ?? i dunno , i told her a couple weeks ago that my " depression is actually doing its job " and this js responded w an " oh 😧 " sooooo ig she js doesn't care abt that sort of stuff . i try not to tell her cus ik she doesn't know how to handle those situations , but i can't keep telling my step dad my issues forever . . . ⸝⸝ ‹𝟹

mayb i should actually keep my stuff to myself for once , like i said was going to ⸝⸝ ‹𝟹

i've been wanting to cut so much more lately . . . how bad have i gotten . . ? ⸝⸝ ‹𝟹

❝ . . . just how you feel . ❞

❝ boy , u wanna come to my motel , honey . . ? ❞

cuttings hurting a lot more recently but ig that's the point ? i don't know if i feel any better , i js feel an energy in my chest that won't leave me alone . mayb i can cut it out if i go deep enough ?? ughhh i cant even hit beans anymore ꒰ ๑ˊᯅˋ๑ ꒱ ⸝⸝ ‹𝟹

anyways i talked to my stepdad abt all of it , at least he's a bit understanding . i haven't told him abt me relapsing and i probably won't , but im literally sitting here w a rag pushed against my stomach and all my supplies under my blanket cus he won't leave my room T_T they burn so bad i need him to leave so i can at least clean them uppppp ⸝⸝ ‹𝟹

❝ . . . boy , u wanna hold me down and tell me that u love me ? ❞