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deku vs. kacchan pt.2 is such a good fucking episode oh my gosh; we get to explore their relationship and a more intimate part of bakugo and I think that's just really special. throughout their fight they grow to have a deeper understanding of each other, and in their own special way, respect each other and I think that's super important to the show and how it moves on(from my memory at least lol)

its seen more in the after credit scene where izuku and katsuki are vacuuming the common area and izuku asks bakugo for tips on his fighting. its not much but its a huge step from their prior relationship and I just really love that. you can also tell the way bakugo has slightly changed in his manor towards deku, yeah he still yells at him but like he does that to everyone, he actually communicates with him and respects him which is a huge step seeing as he only seemed to really respect kirishima.

i just love this show

The Best Love Story of All Time

louis is going down as one of the characters of all time btw. there's something about characters who are so deeply repressed in every facet of their lives continuously fighting for happiness, yet ultimately unable to achieve that happiness because they've denied themselves for so long that they no longer know what they actually want vs what they've convinced themselves to chase.

and it's fascinating, because that's so clear in the way that louis conceptualizes happiness by fighting for the things previously denied to him; the spectre of his perceived failures as a human haunt him and preclude the possibility at any new lease on happiness in the future. he wants to buy the fairplay because he links success with respect, and respect with fulfillment: the idea that as soon as his (white) peers are forced to admit he's a better businessman than them, he'll be happy. except he isn't happy, because there is no goal post at which point they'll accept he's smarter or more capable than them, and so instead he's forced back into a game that will never fulfill him, no matter how powerful or capable he becomes.

and then he tries to build a family, tries to surround himself with people who he can care for and who he can have a positive impact on, building connections for himself and bringing meaning to his life. which also doesn't work, because he's simultaneously haunting and haunted by his human family, and there's no way for him to reconcile what he's lost with what he's gained. he wants grace, and he could have grace, but he's spent his entire life knowing that every facet of himself is unacceptable to society, that he can't admit what he is without also being condemned for it. and it doesn't matter that grace isn't society, that grace would accept him - he is, to his own mind, an unacceptable thing. to admit what he is out loud could only lead to catastrophe, because to think anything less is dangerous to the very principles that allow him to exist.

and so instead of having grace in his life, he has claudia. and he can love claudia and he can adore claudia, but he can not find a connection to humanity in her, because she isn't and doesn't want to be human. he has, in his quest to find meaning and connection with humanity, surrounded himself with monsters.

and then he has lestat. lestat who, for all his grandiosity and hedonism and theatricality, is just as festering a pool of repression as louis is. he's a person who can be anyone, so long as anyone is someone who is seen and adored and wanted, because to be wanted is to be happy.

and so you have louis, a man who can't admit what he wants, because admittance is vulnerability, and vulnerability is death; and you have lestat, a man who needs to be wanted, because if you aren't wanted you're abandoned, and abandonment is a fate worse than death.

and then they both try to get happy.

I wrote a fic about Wally’s death because I fear it haunts me…

(Stay tuned for the rest of the ghosts because they will all get their turn at angst)

You ever stop and realize that a piece of media changed your view on something that you never thought was possible.

For me it was dungeon meshi and Senshi love of Food and Nutrition, it help me realize some of my bad eating habits and the fact that I wasn't really taking care of myself. So I started to change it slowly, looking up recipies to try to make and learning how to make more foods and my god... it has changed so much. They say you are what you eat but it's more litteral then I thought.

I make my own bread now cause turns out it tastes so much better home-made, I try new recipies that are healthier and tastier~ I'm thankful for a new look at life and food and thankful for what I learned through this show. It's important to take care of yourself even if it's hard some days. Thank you Senshi.

we interrupt the regularly scheduled program to bring you this star trek tos edit

coming back out of the my hole to say that if anything happens to that little wine grape baby ms aabria iyengar i will be VERY UPSET

i just blanked out the entire episode because hoo boy, that was a LOT to process. im still so stuck on that bit about avalir. like. THEYRE REMEMBERED!!! somewhat remembered, sure, but!!! it means patia's efforts werent in vain!!! maybe not all of her knowledge survived but some of it did!!! and sam perking up when matt mentioned the arcane batteries. gave me such intense loquaerryn flashbacks. im sorry im still so emotional about exu calamity

Abbott Elementary + no context

...what now?

I just truly realized how ridiculous something rotten's plot sounds because i had to explain it in my first language to my friend.