This Is Absolutely Nuts How Have I Never Read It Before

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I resonate with Hannibal because I understand what it is like to desire sight from another, to want someone to know you fully. The pain of giving that sight and knowledge, only to have them turn a blind eye. The torture of never feeling known or seen. For what is revealed to be turned against you. To have given someone that rare gift only to have them shove it away. It is a terrible feeling to be someone else and never feel as tho you can show yourself to another. It's lonely, and I know this loneliness all too well.

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I’m rewatching Hannibal yet again, I'm currently on season one. And season one Will is so different, with the ravenstag outside his shower, his darkness seen as invasive, laying in wait, letting others command his life because he’s sick and scared of himself and wants so desperately to be needed, to be accepted, to be good…. Calling murder “the ugliest thing in the world” as if the words taste sour after telling Hannibal killing Hobbs “felt good and powerful”. If that Will looked into a mirror and saw himself after wrath of the lamb, he’d be horrified. He would hate that version of himself for loving Hannibal in the end, he would see the kernel of truth in it all and want to crush it. In season three, Will tells Bedelia that he’d help a wounded bird. To the current Will, his past self would be that wounded bird, breaking its own wings, and the desire to help with that situation is very similar to how Hannibal saw it himself, at least. It’s so fascinating how his character arc showed so much transformation while the core of him remained the same. His perspective on himself in relation to others and the world is the only thing that changed, just like Hannibal’s did. The way that completely altered their lives in the end has such insanely hard-hitting poignancy

one of them def had to have creamed their jeans during this. prolly both

they dont know im writing about them

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Will Graham scar drawing from a few years back!

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me when the fic mentions hannibal not liking the cold

what abt s3 will🤑🤑

bringing my super autistic pattern recognition powers by judging you based on your favorite Will Graham:

Season one wet dog fish cabin unwell Will: you are trans, you want to look like that specific brand of Will, you mimic Hugh's enunciation to try to sound like him, you are an intellectual, you are young (younger than 25), you probably live with your parents or with a rommate who is very similar to you in personality or taste, you are american, you want to be funny/constantly making jokes, you are the "I don't fit in" type of autistic, you have some specific skill (maybe drawing, maybe tech), you play an instrument, you have fits of histeria when you see photos/videos of Hugh or Mads (the gen z hand thing where you pretend to eat your fist).

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You are very young (15—25), traditionally feminine, major daddy issues, you think you are Abigail, you think Will actually loved Abigail, you are constantly confused if you want Will to fuck you or to father you, might be into dead dove fics, you have a savior complex, you consider yourself an "old soul", you "prefer older men", you write poetry, you listen to Lana, you like the aesthetic if Lolita but probably never read the book, you like the coquette style, you are perceived as shy or quiet, you are internally slutty but externally virginal, you crave to feel beautiful, may or may not struggle with ed, you may have a cat, you are the socially awkward type of autistic but you don't want to admit that, it terrifies you to think people perceive you negatively/as anything other than perfect, you don't have many friends, girls tend to have problems with you, you have one best friend or none, you fantasize about being the loveliest, the unparalleled, the one they love the most.

Season two slutty fancy murder husband Will: you are +22 years old, you are bi/pan but pending more for men, it's hard to impress you or offend you, you don't flinch from darker themes and you don't hide your tastes out of shame, actually you're pretty shameless, you are very open about who you are, your tastes, sexuality etc, you don't care much what others think, you've always liked m/m media and consume it a lot more than het or any other kind and you exclusively read m/m fanfiction, you are the blunt "off putting" type of autistic, you're actually perceived as cool by most people even though you don't consider yourself cool. you want Mads to choke you, you are very creative, you have a competence kink, you psychoanalyze everything, you have a fucked up sleeping schedule, you have a lot of friends and if you don't it's out of choice, you might be dating what's known as a golden retriever man. or a really pretty girl.