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Funny how you meet a person and fuck it up and then wanna kill your self in all the same span of a couple years and it keep happening
My brain is just busy screaming at me,
“Create something motherfucker! The world may be ending but your work will not!!!”
I just know one day I’m gonna become one of those people who kids say their house is haunted and inside lives some crazy person (I am the haunt and the crazy person)
Think it’s time I put out into the world my Changeling that may or may not just be my life but put into a bleak poor man’s fantasy setting
You know it’s pointless in the end to purposely cause pain and suffering for other people
I’ve always related to Lemony Snicket, but I feel like I’m stuck between the passages of The Beatrice Letters all over again
This is exactly the case for my own campaign that I currently need to write the next story chart for but am procrastinating on😵💫
The wild thing about being obsessed with your own DnD campaign is that there's absolutely NO fandom content for it except the stuff that you make
Like, what do you mean only six other people in the entire world have heard of Dave the Ice Elemental whose job is Freezer at the Fantasy Starbucks?
The Monologue of Finding a Room Both Internal and External
“Hi! My name is-“ SHUT UPPPPP, IM SO TIRED OF TYPING MY NAME, CAN I JUST SHUT UP
“I’m looking for a roommate who can afford-“ IN THIS ECONOMY?! WHO?! WHERE
“Please respond” :,)
I admit it, I’m a terrible roommate cuz my anxiety keeps me from communicating and thus everything falls apart cuz I’m expected to keep the house together. But for the love of god, CAN YOU PLEASE TRY TO COMMUNICATE BACK 😭
It’s still a work in progress but here’s a cool simple list I found to help clean your room that I’ve been using:
Hope this helps anyone!
🎵If you’re struggling to clean your room clap your hands 🎵
Saw a Costco employee today who was wearing a gorgeous gothic lace gown under her work vest. Had to tell her right away I loved her look
It’s beautiful that there will always an endless grove of stories in this world
No eloquent words, only screams of anxiety and shame that are rippling through my spine like a Brazilian wax
Maybe I should update my Blue Exorcist fanfic. Feeling bad for all the readers. Will tomorrow. Am eepy
Caesar getting stabbed? Nah that wasn’t the most brutal thing in Julius Caesar. It was when Portia swallowed those hot coals
Working on redoing my room. The new light set up helps
@kuradoberijam
You ever had a dream that had a storyline so good, you start mapping out the storyline inside the dream so the storyline can be tangible in reality, but when you wake up the dream has started slipping from your mind, and you’re sitting there left to wonder who Marco and Destin are and what are their stories…
(Lowkey feeling nostalgic about the HBO goodnight moon special which I was thinking of while making this post. I swear if I ever get a chance to watch it again I might cry.)
Heading out in an hour for the Demon Slayer movie for both enjoyment since I’ve gotten back into the series again AND for content for my monthly nerd articles.
Could just do a basic review but am trying to fish for other ideas.
Calling all Demon Slayer nerds, anything I should know about in regards to the new movie? Any new characters I should focus on?
Please let me know!
I’ll likely post a brief summary here after I watch the movie.
And another additional thought, ever since I found out the elemental effects for breathing styles are things only the audience can see, it’s been blowing my mind about mist and fire breathing.
I’m considering putting out a trilogy on here born from an idea I put in a journal forever ago covering some gothic tales about witches and their familiars. I still need to finish the stories but expect them to come up soon.
It’s very much a WIP cuz I don’t even have a title yet 😂
Time to do some more witch research and gothic tales research!
Gonna drop the recipe:
* 2 boxes of Velveeta Mac n Cheese (Kraft works fine too),
*1 small bag of broccoli
*A few shakes of Garlic salt
Put them all together and you have the perfect feel better meal ✨
Trying to summon a Mac n cheese with garlic salt tulpa because @midnitevintage got me into the combo and now I’m craving it again.
Just a cat parent now working two jobs and wondering what’s next. Can’t believe it took me 3 months to find a second job. Urgently hiring will always boil down to selective hiring
Excuse me as I obsess about this movie for the next week
Stopmotion (2023)
Ella Blake is a stop-motion animator who is struggling to control her demons after the loss of her overbearing mother. Suddenly alone in the world, she creates a macabre new puppet film, while struggling to maintain her sanity. As Ella’s mind starts to fracture, the characters in her animated film take on a terrifying life of their own, and the unleashed power of her imagination threatens to destroy her. IFC Films and Shudder distribute in the US. Scott Shooman, head of AMC Networks’ film group was quoted saying: “IFC and Shudder are ecstatic to bring Robert Morgan’s riveting live-action/animation hybrid to audiences everywhere. ’Stopmotion’ is excellent as it weaves together a unique, psychological-horror with unbelievable visuals. The film joins the ranks of critically acclaimed titles such as ‘Mad God’ and ‘The Wolf House’ – breaking ground for how we perceive stop-motion in horror. We are thrilled to distribute Morgan’s first full-length feature for its theatrical release and presence on our streaming platform, Shudder.” The feature film directorial debut of Robert Morgan. Described as an “elevated horror film” and a “live-action/animation hybrid.” IFC Films releases Stopmotion in Theaters on February 23, 2024. Stopmotion premieres on Shudder on May 31, 2024. IMDb Director: Robert Morgan Dread Central: ‘Stopmotion’ Director Robert Morgan Explains Why Meat Doesn’t Make Good Puppets Bloody Disgusting: ‘Stopmotion’ Trailer Brings Eerie Puppet to Life in Psychological Horror Movie Rue Morgue: GET ANIMATED OVER THE NEW TRAILER FOR IFC AND SHUDDER’S DISTURBING “STOPMOTION” Read the full article
Had a good birthday, now it’s birthday part 2 and I’m going to the hello kitty cafe!
Choco Cat and Charmny Kitty are my favorite guys so I’m doing my best to dress in the spirit of both with a heart cat shirt.
Random thoughts but one time I found a eyeshadow palette for Choco Cat and it was entirely made of of neon colors. Did not fit their aesthetic at all 😭
Park Lake- mhw #2
Previously I said I was going to the canyon for my next big walk, but my vehicle and state of mind both said no, so I took a trip to a nearby regional park.
I love how cheap entry is and it’s a park that holds a lot of memories for me as I used to participate in a summer day camp as a kid that would take place there. My scout days are far behind me now.
One of the many bird residents of the park. The Canadian Geese of course are the most abundant and the loudest. I was hesitant eating my lunch near them.
Ordinarily I would take two loops around, but this time I went once around the lake and then sat at some of the many benches for a while.
I didn’t have my headphones with me so my mind uncomfortably ruminated during a majority of the walk. So I mostly just tried to focus on all the chatter of the ducks and geese who were yelling at each other about who knows what.
It’s also pleasant to see people fishing and having fun together. I have a complicated relationship with the activity of fishing but if I were to ever have access to my old gear, perhaps I’d take it up again. But I was here to walk, not fish.
Lake and bench.
If you ever get a chance to just stop by a lake, I recommend taking the time to birdwatch. Last time I was at the lake, I watched a goose get into a fight with a squirrel who was trying to steal bread from one of her babies. It was a very heated battle.
Even if I still feel uncertain if any of my mental health was repaired from this walk, I’m just grateful for the fact that I could see some pretty nature and got in about an hour of exercise. Something I learned from therapy is that recording what you are grateful for can also help you feel better.
And thus, I am grateful for the memories this park has given me, the geese, the other wildlife, the shimmers of the lake, the friendly fisherman, the cheap entry tickets, and the many park benches/shelter stations.
Characters I Headcanon have Bipolar disorder
(From the perspective of someone living with Bipolar 2)
**Disclaimer**
This is all meant to be in good fun and I’m no mental health expert; merely someone who has been through lots of therapy
Let’s Begin!
1. Rin Okumura from Blue Exorcist
I’ve always related to Rin Okumura, especially during the time I was under the mistaken diagnosis of ADD. I was surprised to learn from this that a lot of symptoms of bipolar can look like ADD/ADHD at times.
For example, Rin is shown to be someone who is easily distracted or fixated on new topics. He also tends to sleep a lot which is confirmed in the manga by the fact that this boy sleeps 12 hours every night. And finally a major factor that clued me in is how easily he is swayed by his emotions which leads him to act impulsively.
Rin’s emotions tie him to his demonic half which in turn can cause a lot of inner turmoil for him. I’m sure anyone with bipolar can relate in feeling like their change to either a manic/hypomanic state can cause them to feel like a demon and out of control. But as is shown in the series, by practicing to focus on his emotions, Rin learns to lessen and control his symptoms.
2. Gangle from The Amazing Digital Circus
I know I know, I’m lowkey pulling for stereotypes here with the tragedy and comedy masks. And on top of that this is a series with only a pilot so we hardly know anything concrete about her character. 😂
Everyone in the digital circus seems to play a role based off of their avatar given to them. As a being with two different masks, Gangle is very sensitive to the way in which she acts when her comedy mask is broken.
She tends to be very anxious and sensitive to the events that unfold around her both physically and mentally (she unravels from a mere bowling ball being thrown her way by Jax).
In some fandom interpretations of her character I’ve seen interesting depictions that also heavily give bipolar vibes like Gangle having an abstracted self tied to her ribbons or forcing on her comedy mask. I love Gangle and this pilot.
3. Captain SpaceBoy from Omori
Oh poor Captain SpaceBoy. He’s so heavily influenced by any mood swings he experiences that he seems to take on an entirely new persona whether it be SpaceBoyfriend, Space-ExBoyfriend, SpaceHusband, or Space-ExHusband.
When you first meet his character, you can clearly see he is depressed as he refuses to leave his bed and throws away any special possessions that remind him of his heart ache. Later on he even goes as far as to isolate himself on top of a snowy mountain when the heartache returns to him again..
He is also easily consumed by a rage which seems similar to a manic/hypomanic state that leads him to fight the main cast of characters. Also when it comes to his special boss battle I find it interesting how you can only defeat him by fighting him in certain states of emotion.
4. Howl Jenkins Pendragon from Howl’s Moving Castle
Howl is undeniably a drama Queen, but some of the ways in which he takes certain actions give me some bipolar vibes.
There is of course the infamous scene in which he throws a tantrum due to Sophie organizing his hair dye potions. He swings very quickly from being irritated and enraged to absolutely inconsolable and depressed. He even spends that next couple hours in bed after this scene.
Howl also tends to lead himself to danger as he appears to be in heightened states of euphoria when he pushes himself to the limit with his magic. He is also rather impulsive when it comes to the relationships he makes with others if we are going off of his book persona.
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But above all!! All these characters are shown to be good people who genuinely care about the feelings of others and try to do their best to help even when their own mental health is bringing them down.
Bipolar individuals are more than their disorder; we are all kind people ♥️
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And that’s all! Lemme know what you think :)
Whoops been too depressed and tired to take a walk
Rain Walk- mhw #1
I have decided to document a series where I chronicle the walks I take for my mental health. Let us begin for this past Saturday when it was raining.
View from near by neighborhood. Blurred for cool effects and to make the pretty lights stand out.
Who doesn’t love a good walk in the rain? This was purely spur of the moment but something in me was just telling me that I NEEDED to be out in that rain walking around. Especially since it was starting to slow down.
It’s been rough ngl. Also the feeling of the rain sprinkling in your skin is 20/10. Another 20/10 is walking in the rain while ALSO listening to a liminal space playlist. I highly recommend it.Also the fog starting to drop in was another 20/10.
The rain in a way can feel like a liminal space because of how empty the roads can be. Liminal spaces are shown to be rather lonely which was sort of the case on my walk. Just occasional car would pass by. Now I’m thinking about liminal rooms with a rain landscapes. That sounds cool.
I started to notice on my walk there are only specific types of people that really take walks on the rain:
Big Dog Walkers
Smokers
The Mentally Ill Like Me
The Occasional Avid Elderly Walker
Of course they all make perfect sense for different reasons, but if there’s anyone I’d prefer the pass it’s the smoker as they always have a unique sense of style. The smoker I passed had a striped shirt and green hair. Kinda like that one Danganronpa character whose name I can’t remember.
And another great thing about walks in the rain is you’ll find little friends on the sidewalk as pictured below:
Pictured are Mx. Snail and the Earthworm. Couldn’t find the earthworm on my second loop around so I hope they’re okay. The Snail went to hide in their shell and I respect that. Some people are just camera shy and you can’t change that.
Well, that’s all I have left to say on the matter. I’ll probably take another walk tomorrow, been wanting to explore this canyon.
Allow me to provide a song recc from my playlist. Lemme know if you have any you’d like to give me for my playlist!