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Rely On Time

Wherein I'm a whore for Jewish Bucky Barnes and love writing things inspired by religions and myths.

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2023

Bucky had never truly felt alone in the world.

Of course, as the Winter Soldier, he hadn't had much of a consciousness to even consider that idea. Even when he was in Azzano, he had his men. Strapped to Zola's table in experimentation, the idea of being alone hadn't mattered so much, knowing he would be dead. Before the war, he had Steve.

Steve.

Fastened to his side, Steve had always been there. It had been a month, and he still couldn't believe it. That he would leave so easily, after all they had gone through. But that was just it, wasn't it? Steve had time taken away from him, had his freedom stripped under the stripes of that shield in an attempt to fight for the freedoms of others. Of course he would choose to go back for a second chance.

Bucky didn't have that option.

Eve was her own being, her own thoughts. Though fashioned from Adam's rib, she was not him. Her own desire lived within her and the snake knew it. But why is that a sin? The pursuit of Knowledge in the name of growth, even at the risk of disobeying God? Could it have been what He intended all along? He planted the Tree, he created the snake, he fashioned humanity knowing they would question it all - all for humankind to learn and grow, to plant their roots alongside the Tree.

He wondered, sometimes, what he was. Was he a collection of thoughts? Are people only the recollections of times past? He walked as living proof of not only a time that no longer was, but the strength of a people who lived despite all odds.

Despite all odds.

Was that all it was? Random chance? Did he ever fight anything? No choice but to accept the draft. Too sick to fight Zola back, barely lucid enough to keep himself from biting off his tongue. The chair, the abuse, was that all some twisted fate that he had to live through because it was meant to happen? Did all that happen so he could be where he was now, laying on cold hardwood floor because he was falling through his bed?

Could he rely on time, when it was ripped from him?

He sometimes thought about what his life could've ended up like, if he hadn't gone to war. He thought, at one point, that he would get married. As Adam and Eve wed under the Tree, he could stand under the chuppah in their image surrounded by love and life and foliage. Sometimes he thought about what it could be now, if things somehow got better. If he could sleep in his bed without drowning. If he could look a man in the eye and not see his ancestors instead.

Could he be a shadow?

Something that varies, melding and changing. If he was made of memories, what would happen if he forgot again? Hands of Esau but Voice of Jacob. Was he now building to the divine Israel? Making up for his wrongs, turning to virtue.

Was it worth it? Trying?

At this point, what could be good? What all could he love? Everything was a mess. He wandered.

Maybe he was meant to be lost. He could choose to believe he was worthless, aimless without his other half. Or he could make his own choices; eat the apple like Eve, take the virtue like Israel, and trust that someday, everything that happened to him would make sense.

And that one day, he could trust that he wouldn't ever be alone again.

SEBASTIAN STAN as JAMES "BUCKY" BARNES THE FALCON AND THE WINTER SOLDIER (2021), dir. KARI SKOGLAND ↳ 1x04 "The Whole World is Watching"

they’re so hot

Daisy Edgar-Jones and Sebastian Stan for Flaunt Magazine

Stucky is cool, but I like angst. So, what if Bucky and Steve loved each other, but they never told each other because they thought it was unrequited love, and admitting their feelings for one another would just lead to a ruined friendship.

That would explain why Steve stayed so obsessed with Peggy and wanted to go back so desperately. Not just because he was homesick for the 40s, but also because he did have feelings for Peggy. And while his feelings for Peggy weren't as strong as his love for Bucky, it was better than being trapped in that torturous cycle of waking up everyday and yearning for something he thought was never there.

Making out with a guy who isn’t Bucky Barnes:

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Bucky Barnes x Reader

A/N Idk if I like this but hopefully I can get back to writing more regularly. This is more of a drabble and I think I might do more of these as I get back into writing. Also, the reader in this isn't usually a big fan of physical affection like me. As always likes, comments and reblogs are greatly appreciated.

THIS IS NOT AN 18+ FIC BUT I STILL FEEL UNCOMFORTABLE WITH MINORS READING MY FICS SO PLEASE DNI IF YOU ARE A MINOR.

Summary You feel like you're too clingy.

WC - 303

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Warnings Fluff

Sometimes you wonder if you're too clingy. Which sounds like you're talking about another person, because you've never been a big fan of physical affection. 

But when it comes to Bucky you just can't help yourself. He's just so huggable and after everything he's been through he deserves all the hugs in the world. 

That's how you got here asking Bucky the words, “Do you think I'm too clingy?”

Bucky looks completely shocked like you've asked the most basic question ever, “what made you want to ask that doll?”

He tightens his arms around you making sure you stay straddling his lap. 

You look past him, “I just-... I just feel like sometimes I'm all over you, and I don't even know where it's come from because I don't usually want to be touching someone as much as this. And I don't want to be overbearing, or cross any boundaries and-”

“Hey, calm down doll,” Bucky cuts you off and presses a kiss to your forehead before continuing. “For starters, you're not overbearing, I love how you always want to be touching me. Especially since you're not like this with anyone else. And secondly, if I was uncomfortable I would've found a way to tell you. Okay?”

You nod and a smile creeps onto your face. Bucky rests his metal hand on the side of your face. The use of his metal hand is a sign of his undying love and trust in you.

“I love you doll. You've taught me that I deserve to be loved in every way possible. So to think you're being overbearing is almost silly. I love you so much doll, more than I've ever loved anyone”

He presses his lips to yours in a slow and gentle kiss as the world around you two seems to fade.

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Fave Sebass Stan movies??

Tbh there's not many of his films I've watched and didn't like but my go to films are:

The 355

Captain America: The First Avenger

Political Animals (Ik it's a series but I couldn't help myself)

The Martian

Monday

Tysm for the ask!

Confessions

Steve Rogers x Reader

A/N 'SUP BITCHES, I'M BACK TO POSTING... But on a serious note kinda I think at this point I've got to accept that I haven't got the mental capacity or attention span to regularly post on Tumblr. Also, there will be a part two to this. maybe even a part three. I also want to thank those who have continously supported my other posts although I haven't posted any new fics in months I love you all. And as always likes, comments and reblogs are greatly appreciated.

THIS IS NOT AN 18+ FIC BUT I STILL FEEL UNCOMFORTABLE WITH MINORS READING MY FICS SO PLEASE DNI IF YOU ARE A MINOR.

Summary Confessions are made and discussed, changing the dynamics between you, Steve and Bucky

DO NOT REPOST ONTO ANY OTHER APPS/WEBSITES. THE ONLY PLACE THIS FIC IS ON IS TUMBLR.

Warnings Fluff and angst.....lots of angst.

Today, you and Steve were going on your monthly date. You were dressed in the new outfit you bought with Natasha the day before. Your makeup was minimal, and your hair was in Steve’s favourite style. He wouldn't admit it, but every time you do your hair like this, it always ends in some mind-blowing orgasms. 

“Are you ready, doll?” Steve shouted from the bedroom as you were checking your outfit in the floor-to-ceiling mirror in your ensuite.

“Yes, I just need to get my bag and phone,” you responded.

“I’ve already got them for you.” 

You walked out of the bathroom, smiling at your boyfriend since he knew how forgetful you are. He held up your bag and you checked it to ensure nothing had been forgotten, and unsurprisingly, everything you needed was in there. 

“Thanks, babe,” you told him before pressing a kiss to his lips. 

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You had arrived at the restaurant just in time for your reservation. Steve made sure to open the door before you could open it for yourself, and you thanked him. You approached the host stand and waited for a minute before a waitress with long, purple hair and an array of piercings approached you.

“Do you guys have a reservation for tonight?” She asked with a smile.

“Yes, for Rogers,” Steve told her.

She typed on the laptop on the desk, “Ah, yes.” She clicked on something and then asked you to follow her. 

She took you to a table in the far corner of the restaurant, which meant you and Steve could have more privacy. Both of you thanked the waitress after she handed you a couple of menus.

“I didn’t think you were going to take me somewhere so expensive, I would’ve worn nicer clothes,” you told Steve, looking around the large restaurant with dim lighting and elegant tables and chairs. “The menu doesn’t even have the prices on it.”

Steve playfully rolled his eyes and responded, “ Firstly, my love, you wouldn’t be comfy in your nicer clothes, and secondly, you’re not paying, so order what you want and I’ll pay.”

You stuck your tongue out at him and proceeded to look through the menu while talking to Steve about your week. 

After 10 minutes, the waitress returned, and you and Steve ordered your drinks and food. She returned a minute later with your drinks, telling you that your food would be out shortly.

You both put your menus to the side and looked at each other. There was a tension in the air and neither of you wanted to discuss it.

After a minute of being uncomfortable, you huffed and broke the silence, “So, Bucky.” 

“Yeah, Bucky,” Steve responded, looking down.

“Y’know you don’t have to feel guilty,” you tried to grab his hand but he just pulled away- your eyes softened at the action.

“I do,” he took a deep, shaky breath “I confessed to my girlfriend of 3 years that I have a crush on my childhood best friend.” 

“You don’t need to be ashamed Steve, you can love another man.”

“I know…it.. it's not that.”

“Then what is it, babe? I can’t begin to help you if you don’t tell me where the issue is.” 

“Do you not see the issue, I love you and Bucky….If you make me choose…I-”

You cut him off before he could say more, “Who said you had to choose?”

“Wh…what?”

“I really didn’t want to tell you this but I have a thing for you AND Bucky but when we got together I didn’t want to tell you that I also found your best friend of over 80 years hot.” 

Steve’s face scrunched up in confusion, “So why did you agree to go out with me, darlin’?”

You smiled “Because you asked me first and I assumed that since you approached me, I wasn’t Bucky’s type. But that’s ok because you’re amazing. I truly feel the same way about you and Bucky. I-I just didn’t want to admit it for a long time.”

A smile had crept its way onto Steve’s face. “So where do we go from here?”

“Well, it depends on what you want. If you want to continue our relationship then I’ll be happy but if you want to pursue a relationship with Bucky then I'm equally as happy. Your happiness is what determined my happiness so if you have to be with Bucky to be happy I'm not making you choose, I'm simply letting you love the person you want to not who you feel like you should love,” tears had started to gather in your waterline and Steve’s too. You were about to continue but Steve got there first.

“But I want both of you,” his voice cracked on the last word and your heart shattered.

“You can have both of us, I was just about to say that we could discuss adding Bucky to our relationship.

Steve looked you in the eye, “Really?” he was wiping away the tears that had started to fall, “how does that work?” 

“Have you heard of polyamory before?” Steve just shook his head in response “Well, it's a word used to describe a relationship involving more than two people.”

“You would do that?” he asked his tone hopeful.

“Of course I would I love you so so so much and Bucky is so sweet and amazing,” you replied with a smile.

Steve was about to respond but the waitress came along with your food and placed it on the table in front of you and Steve.

“We can continue this talk after dinner,” you offered to which Steve agreed. 

You ate your food in a comfortable silence. It wasn’t long before you both finished and decided against dessert in favour of getting back to the compound and talking to Bucky. 

The waitress brought the bill over and Steve paid, leaving a hefty tip as you both left, hand in hand, getting yourselves ready to talk to Bucky about your…… shared interest in him.

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WIP Re-blog Game

If you're like me and you have a million WIPs and are anxious about updating them, play this game!

List the titles your top five priorities for WIP updates (link your fics for new readers!)

An upcoming scene, event, or detail in each fic that you're looking forward to writing

Bonus: make a poll for your followers to vote on which top 5 WIP they are most excited to see an update on!

Then tag 10 writer friends!

Priorities:

"Alpha, Beta (& Omega)" [Stucky, a/b/o]

"Temporary Custody" [Stucky x ofc, Dom/sub AU]

"Blood Moon Rising" [Stucky, werewolf a/b/o]

"The Carter Academy for Omega Excellence" [Stucky, a/b/o, D/s]

"Worth the Wait" [Stucky x reader, soulmate au, Dom/sub AU]

Excited about:

Bucky being spanked by his Alpha Headship 👋🏼

A steamy sex scene between husbands 🧑🏻‍❤️‍👨

The mating run 🐺

Steve taking control of Bucky's discipline programme 😈

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First 'date'

Bucky Barnes x Reader

A/N Sorry for not being active I've just been spending time with friends and family but I'm back now! Also, this is going to be a series but idk how often I will update it.

THIS IS NOT AN 18+ FIC BUT I STILL FEEL UNCOMFORTABLE WITH MINORS READING MY FICS SO PLEASE DNI IF YOU ARE A MINOR.

Summary You and Bucky go on a first 'date'

DO NOT REPOST ONTO ANY OTHER APPS/WEBSITES. THE ONLY PLACE THIS FIC IS ON IS TUMBLR.

Warnings Fluff

You couldn't remember the last time you felt so nervous. You were getting ready for a date with James (or Bucky as he tells you to call him.) You met him on a dating app and were texting for two weeks before you decided to go on this date. 

As well as feeling nervous, you also felt excited to meet Bucky. He seemed so sweet over text and judging by his profile picture, he was the hottest guy you had ever seen. 

You could only hope he was like this in real life. 

“Can I come in now?” your friend, Ella, shouted from the other side of your bedroom door. 

“Yeah,” you shouted back. 

Your so-called ‘date’ was more of a meeting at a coffee shop so you were wearing a slightly oversized shirt, your favourite jeans, and a pair of black sneakers. You had minimal makeup on and your hair was styled in a way that made you feel confident. 

You and Bucky are anxious people and agreed that a coffee shop would be a much more calming environment when meeting each other for the first time. 

“Do I look ok?” you asked Ella. 

“You look amazing y/n!”

“Really?” you questioned. 

“You're going to a coffee shop, not a Michelin-star restaurant,” Ella told you. 

“Ok,” you took a deep breath, “I’m ready.”

You grabbed your bag off your bed and made sure you had everything you needed. 

“I'll see you later,” you told Ella. 

“I'll see you later if you don't end up getting laid.” 

You rolled your eyes and left the apartment you shared with Ella. 

The coffee shop was a five-minute walk away so you weren't in a hurry to get there. 

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Once you got there you scanned the shop and your eyes landed on the man sitting at the table in the corner. You could only see the back of his head but he was dressed in all black and that's what Bucky told you he wore. 

You cautiously approached him so as not to scare him.

“A-are you Bucky?” you asked. 

The man turned around and smiled at you, “I am.” he replied.

“Thank God, if you said no I was gonna be so embarrassed,” you walked over to the chair across from him and sat down. 

“How are you today?” he asked, cringing at the question. 

“I was a little nervous earlier but I feel better since you seem to be in a similar state,” you responded with a chuckle. 

“Is it that obvious?” he asked, rubbing the back of his head.

“Just a little bit, but you don’t have to feel bad about it,” you assured him.

You looked at the table where his hands were resting. You noticed the black gloves but didn’t say anything, you knew who he was but weren’t sure if he knew that and you didn’t want to make him uncomfortable. You didn’t see him as a bad person or a villain. You did your research on him a while back and you could’ve never blamed him for his actions, he didn’t have control of himself at the time. 

He seemed so genuine and kind, nothing like the monster the government made him out to be. You started to speak about how your week had been so far and you thought it was funny how Bucky spoke about his friend Sam who he seemed to love and hate at the same time.

“Do you want to order now?” he asked you.

You just nodded in response.

“If you want I can order for us,” Bucky offered.

You told him your order and thanked him for ordering for you. He got up from his seat and walked over to the counter to order. He told the barista the drinks he wanted and paid. As he was waiting for the drinks he looked over to you and smiled. 

You returned his smile and butterflies erupted in your stomach. You tried to calm your nerves by looking at your lap. 

A few minutes later, Bucky returned with the drinks and sat back down.

“Thanks,” you told him, “you didn’t have to buy my drink for me.” 

“It’s the least I could do doll,” he told you with a smile.

You both continued to get to know eachother even more until the barista came over to tell you that closing time was in 5 minutes.

“So I guess that’s the end of our date,” Bucky chuckled, “ I hope I wasn’t too boring.” 

“Hey, don’t put your self down, I had a good time,” you gave him a small smile.

You said your goodbyes and went your separate ways. 

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As you walked through the door of your apartment, you were bombarded by Ella.

“So how did it go with Bucky?” he wiggled her eyebrows at you.

“It was really good, I hope we can go on another date, maybe to a restaurant next time,” you told her with a smile on your face.

Ella squealed and pulled you further into your apartment. 

You were about to go into the livingroom when you heard the notification sound on your phone go off. 

“Who is it?” Ella inquired.

“It’s Bucky,” you replied, clicking on the notification, “He wants to go on another date!” you almost shouted with excitement.

“Fuck yeah, my bestie is finally gonna get that D.” 

“Calm down, you’re more excited about me having sex with Bucky then I am,” you laughed.

The rest of the night was spen watching movies whilst eating snacks and telling Ella everything about your ‘date’ with Bucky.

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And if you don't celebrate Christmas then happy holidays!

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christmas shopping

Bucky Barnes x reader

A/N This is a part of my 100 followers celebration. Thanks for being so patient with me and my inconsistent posting of these fics. All mistakes are my own so if you see any feel free to let me know. Also, comments, likes and reblogs are appreciated.

18+ MINORS FUCK OFF YOU'RE NOT OLD ENOUGH (I WARNED YOU)

Summary You and Nat do some Christmas shopping and when you get back Bucky is horny. (I'm sorry for the shitty summary)

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Warnings Fluff, smut, unprotected sex (use protection, you're not fictional)

Today, you had decided that you were going to do your Christmas shopping. However, you decided to bring Natasha along to help you in your decision-making because she also needed to buy some presents. 

“Where are we going first?” you asked Nat. 

“I’m thinking we go to the bookstore first since it’s the closest and we’ll work our way around all the other shops.”

“Sounds good,” you responded. 

It was less than a  5-minute walk to the bookshop that you and Bucky loved so much. It wasn’t fancy and the employees were accommodating.

“Good morning Richard,” you shouted as soon as you entered the shop.

Richard was one of the three workers at the shop. He was a decade or so younger than Bucky and was your favourite person there (although the others were still nice.) Richard had started working there 20 years ago when he was supposed to retire but, with his wife having passed and nothing to do he decided to get a job to give him something to do.

“Good morning dear, I see you haven't got Bucky with you today,” he responded with a smile on his face, “Who’s this lovely young lady you have with you?”

“This is mine and Bucky’s friend Natasha, we're here to do some Christmas shopping.”

Richard nodded, “It’s nice to meet you, Natasha.”

“It’s nice to meet you too Richard, I’ve heard a lot about you,” she responded with a grin on her face.

“All good things I hope,” Richard joked.

You all laughed, “There’s only good things to say about you.”

“I’ll let you ladies shop around while I finish stocking the shelves. If you need me just give me a shout.”

“Will do.”

You and Natasha walked around for a while before your eyes laid upon the perfect gift for Bucky. It was the first edition of the Hobbit aka Bucky’s favourite book. He did have a copy of it at home but it was a new copy.

You knew that Bucky would love it. You picked it up from the shelf and showed it to Natasha.

“Finally, you found one,” she rolled her eyes. 

Bucky was always talking about getting a first-edition copy of The Hobbit, but he couldn’t find one anywhere. You had suggested him looking online but he didn't trust people as it was so how was he going to trust a stranger on the internet trying to sell something to him?

You walked over to the counter and it was perfect timing since Richard had just finished stocking the shelves. 

He scanned the barcode on the back and asked, “Just this my dear?”

“Yes please,” you took your purse out of your bag and grabbed the correct amount of money. 

You grabbed the book and put it in your bag and then said bye to Richard before walking out of the shop with Nat. 

“Where to next?” you asked.

“I want to look in Louis Vuitton because Steve needs a new belt. His is almost falling apart but he’s too stubborn to buy a new one.”

 “Sounds like Steve,” you added while trying not to laugh.

Everyone knew that Steve hated spending money on ‘unnecessary’ things. It wasn’t that he didn’t have money but he grew up not having much which had made him more conscious of how he spent the money he had.

You crossed the road and walked into the Louis Vuitton store….

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Many hours later, you and Nat trudged through the door of the compound, both nads full of bags. 

“Looks like you spent a lot of money,” Sam mentions.

“No shit!” you retorted.

Sam just rolled his eyes and looked over to Bucky and Steve who had just walked into the room. 

“Did the shopping go well ladies?” Bucky asked. 

“I’d say so,” Natasha shrugged.

“Me too, you responded.”

Bucky walked over to you and grabbed your bags off you. You followed him to your shared floor where he placed the bags down and picked you up.

He started to kiss you with an unexpected amount of need. 

“Are you ok Bucky?” you questioned.

“Yeah doll, just horny.” 

Before you could respond, you were cut off by a moan when Bucky sucked on your sweet spot. 

He walked into your bedroom and put you down on the bed. He got up to turn the light off and start to take your clothes off so you took it as your sign to do the same.

Once you were both done, you shuffled into the middle of the bed. Bucky crawled onto the bed and kissed you from your right ankle up to your neck.

He lifted his head so he could kiss you again. He licked across the seam of your lips, a silent request that you granted. You instantly submitted and allowed his tongue to dominate yours. 

“Bucky please!” you pleaded.

“What baby?” Bucky asked with a smirk on his face.

“I-I want you inside me babe, please,” you begged.

With that, Bucky kissed you again and grabbed his throbbing member. He gave it a few tugs before lining up with your aching pussy. 

He slowly pushed in so you could get used to his size. 

“Please move,” you moaned.

Bucky planted his face in the crook of your neck and started to thrust, his pace relentless. Moans were punched out of you as he also crept a hand down to rub your throbbing clit.

“I love you s’much doll,” Bucky slurred, drunk on the feeling of your tight pussy wrapped around him.

“I l-love you too,” you said before letting out a pornographic moan.

Bucky kissed back up your neck to kiss you again but this time it was all tongue and teeth. Your pussy started to flutter which made Bucky moan. 

“So fuckin’ tight,” he gritted out “Cum for me doll, go on, show me how much you love this cock,” Bucky started to thrust impossibly faster.

“Love your cock so much,” you moaned, “I'm cumming, I'm cumming, gonna cum,” you chanted. 

Fireworks exploded behind your eyelids as your body convulsed from the almost overwhelming pleasure Bucky was giving you. 

“‘m gonna cum too, right in this perfect fuckin’ pussy, so fuckin’ perfect,” Bucky growled. 

His hips stuttered before they came to a stop as he came inside you, his warm seed filling you up and spilling onto the sheets.

Bucky laid on top of you as he tried to slow his breathing. 

You ran your hands through his hair as he hissed any bit of skin he could reach. 

“I love you so much doll,” 

“I love you so much too babe.” 

Bucky leaned up to kiss you before going into the bathroom and grabbing a wet washcloth to clean himself and another one to clean you gently.

After that, he got back into bed and lifted his arm so you could snuggle into his side. 

“So what did you get me doll,” he asked with a smirk on his face.

You playfully hit him on the chest and responded with “You’ll find out on Christmas day.” 

You were feeling tired so you leaned up to give Bucky a chassed kiss on the lips before telling him, “Good night babe,” 

“Good night doll,” Bucky held you closer and started to drift off himself.

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Never alone

Bucky Barnes x Reader

A/N This is a part of my 100 followers celebration. I'm sorry I'm posting these so late at night but it's the only time I've got to post them. I wrote this on my phone so there might be more mistakes. Also, likes, comments and reblogs are appreciated.

THIS IS NOT AN 18+ FIC BUT I STILL FEEL UNCOMFORTABLE WITH MINORS READING MY FICS SO PLEASE DNI IF YOU ARE A MINOR

Summary You get back from a mission and Bucky isn't in a good state.

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Warnings Fluff, angst, crying, mentions of depression/ptsd

It was inevitable that Bucky was going to have good and bad days but today was worse than bad. He had never felt so alone.

You had been on a mission for 1 month now and Bucky was missing you a lot. You had called him the night before to tell him that you were only gonna be 2 more days but that didn't help. The constant nightmares made him feel so tired and depressed.

Bucky was halfway through making himself a cup of coffee when he heard the door open to your shared apartment. Before he could turn around, you were wrapping your arms around his waist and pressing kisses to his back.

"I missed you so much babe," you told him.

Bucky turned to face you, "I missed you too doll."

Bucky opened his arms and you hugged him. He buried his nose in your hair. You stood like that for a couple of minutes before you felt something wet on your hair and Bucky’s body tremble. You pulled back to see him crying.

"what's wrong babe?" you asked, cradling his face between your hands.

"I-I felt so alone while you were gone doll. I feel so stupid but the nightmares came back," Bucky sobbed.

You jumped up onto the nearest counter and opened your arms. Bucky walked over to you and rested his forehead under your chin while you rubbed his back.

The counter helped you be higher than Bucky so you could properly comfort him.

"shhh, you're not alone anymore and you're definitely not stupid. Your feelings are valid and you are allowed to cry babe," you whispered into his ear.

Bucky continued to sob into your chest for some time before the sobs turned into small sniffles and hiccups.

"I'm sorry doll for doing this to you. You're probably tired and me crying is the last thing you need right now," Bucky said looking down.

You put your hand under his chin to get him to look at you.

"I told you it's ok. The last thing you need to do is worry about me."

Bucky lifted you up and walked intp your shared bedroom. He placed you gently onto the bed and went into the closet to get a pair of boxers and a worn t-shirt . He knew how much you love wearing his clothes to bed.

You got changed and joined Bucky under the covers of your bed. You laid down with your arm out so Bucky could lay with his head on your breast.

"I thought you were gonna be a couple more days."

"Me to, but we got things done quickly. I'm sorry for not telling you, I just wanted it to be a surprise."

"it's thd best surprise I could ask for doll," Bucky looked up at you "when did you shower because you don't look like you've just come off a mission."

"I used one of the showers in the compound so I would be ready to go to bed as soon as I got here," you explained.

"I love you doll, so much, more than I could ever tell or show you," Bucky said, looking at you.

He leaned up to press a chased kiss to your lips.

"The same goes for you baby, I love you so much and I want you to know that you're never alone. I'm always a phone call away and if not I can promise you that I'll call you back as soon as I can."

"You're my world doll," Bucky mumbled with a smile in his face.

His eyes were getting heavy and he was welcoming the sleep which was something he hadn't done in a month. He knew that whenever you were there he was never alone and safe from the nightmares.

With that, he fell asleep, forgetting the coffee he was making himself in a pointless attempt to keep him from sleeping. Only thinking about how happy he was to have you home.

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Smut-🔥

Angst-😢

Oneshots

Office sex-💕🔥

Can't sleep-💕😢

Never alone-💕😢

A perfect winters day-💕🔥(only allusions to smut)

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Happy Birthday-🔥

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Alpine-💕

A relationship with Bucky 💕🔥😢

Mini series

Too many missions-💕🔥

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Introduction to me and my blog please read before requesting a fic:

- hi! I'm Soph

- I'm 29 years old

- I have a 10 year old son who's dad is somewhat in the picture

- I have autism, adhd, depression and anxiety so life is a roller-coaster

- I have been obsessed with marvel for YEARS and have seen most films when they came out in cinemas

- I will write for all Sebastian Stan, Chris Evans and Hugh Jackman characters

- I will also write for Tony Stark, Loki, Thor will probably add more at a later date

- I won't write fics about real people though because it makes me uncomfortable

- I'm pretty kinky myself but I WILL NOT write about gore (in a sexual context) or mutilation, rape, extreme pet play, incest will probably add to this list as I think of more

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- I am just over a decade clean of drugs and 9 years smoke free

- I don't talk to my parents

- and I tend to overshare

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Miscellaneous fics and drabbles

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This is too real..

I’m very much still at the restaurant.

Just realised no one had told Bucky "Thank you for saving us," before!

Sam Wilson, Captain America, the BEST SUPERHERO of MCU

CAPTAIN AMERICA AND THE WINTER SOLDIER everybody!!!

Okay, I think it is SO FUNNY that JULIA LOUIS-DREYFUS, Chris Evans' ULTIMATE crush is now a part of MCU with Anthony Mackie and Sebastian Stan's show when Chris isn't anymore. I'm sorry bub but it's funny. It's like something that would happen to me.

TheFalconAndTheWinterSoldier Episode 5 spoiler:

At this moment, Sam Wilson is the most humane, most empathetic, most dedicated and just superhero which by default makes him the BEST SUPERHERO OF MCU.

AND what a beautiful performance by Anthony Mackie! What an episode!

Can we agree that Sebastian Stan's acting in the first five minutes of The Falcon and the Winter Soldier was *chef's kiss*

Give him an Emmy already!!!

So its Fearless (Taylor's Version) and The Falcon and the Winter Soldier day today. I guess I really won huh.

"You're not going to move your seat up are you?"

"No."

The WAY i screamed!!!

The Way The Falcon and the Winter Soldier LEVELED UP with episode 3!!

After re-watching every X-Men film as an adult I have realised that my fav superhero films are those where the superhero and the supervillain frenemy have so much chemistry that the studios have to convince us that they are straight by randomly making them kiss gals they don't have much chemistry with (à la Sharon Carter and Moira McTaggert) like sure we believe you not like every time Magneto reformed he had flashbacks of Charles telling him he's worthy or Steve let Bucky beat him to death cuz they were bros.