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binge eating

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B78yP6BuUjc

if you have problem with binge eating, please watch this video. it’s my 2 day without binge after watching this! 

maybe it will help someone <3 stay strong, love!

holy shit chat

I've been in ed recovery for a YEAR now!! I still have my up n downs but I can confirm recovery is totally worth it

It's a systematic shutdown. You will fail that test. You have no memory. You will forget that speech. Forget how to get to work. And when finally there, you will break down harder than you have ever imagined. Why are my hands shaking when my mind is so still? How can I peel back each layer of skin on my fingertips and still see God? My ghost is very gifted. However, I am not. Let me sink into this chair, the floor, the bed. Whatever holds me still and forget I ever had a name, even something as trivial as a life. When moss grows on trees people do not remark on its tentativeness, it's parasitic nature. It's ugly color. They say 'this shows me the way and covers the dead trees in life'. So when I'm screaming louder than my lungs have ever screamed and my fists make contact with my head, there is no loudness in my heart. My heart wants to die like the rest of me. But my mind hovers over my body like Brutus over Caesar and triumphs in its take over. The lion once waiting with bated breath, now cowers in hopes that maybe death will be kind and sweet. But I am now being lowered into the ground. Finding that glorious cage of health and happiness. It slips away from me every once and awhile. It hides itself, in hopes of teaching me a lesson. But this time, I'm not sure if we'll ever see each other again.

Melissa Rose

☣️⚠️: AVISO: COISAS NOJENTAS, E VOCE PODE SER UMA DELAS !

Viu, eu acho que você é uma delas, nojenta e nojenta.

( autocrítica )

OIII GENTE!!

Alguém já passou por uma recovery?

Eu já passei, e horrível, eu tive que sair da ana por um tempo por causa dos meus pais, aí eu não tive uma motivação p continuar na nf e acabei comendo coisas gordurosas.

Eu me arrependo MUITO eu tava com 46kg, agora eu tô 50kg, cara eu sinto nojo de mim, eu voltei p ana por desespero.

Agora, eu vou fazer nf pesadíssima p tentar emagrecer

Tchau borboletinhas 🦋

recovery sucks. seeing my scars healing sucks. this sucks

I thought I thought I was generally healed from my ED but evidently not cuz I just threw up all my guts and 5 hours + a nap later I can still feel mia

Addiction sucks because you get so deep into it that you dont know how to live without your substance. Life without it feels so lacklustre. You lose track of who you are

I am an alcoholic trying to recover but living without is so hard for me.

This is my plan

I will start drinking in secret to try reduce my alc intake cuz trying to go sober is really hard, idk how to act sober, idk who I am sober, idk how to feel normal sober

It just doesnt work for me

Trying to stay sober while everyone around you is either street drinking or clubbing is so hard

I'm 18 why do I have to struggle like this

The only way I will feel happy without blacking out or doing stupid shit is if i keep drinking but without telling anyone,

Doing it in secret because then I will be worried about people knowing so I will be forced to drink less but I still get to have the clutch that makes me likeable and able to actually enjoy my time

I know this is a bad idea and I should just cut it out entirely but after a week of trying I just cant I cannot it is too difficult

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