Bsd - Blog Posts

i really want to fukuzawa to give me a hug and tell me everything’s going to be alright. :( why can’t i have your father figure ranpo!?!

i ship soukoku in the most queerplatonic, codependent, doomed yaoi way. there is no such thing as soukoku fluff to me.

a little fanfic piece i decided to write because i don’t actually feel like ranting about how akutagawa isn’t obsessed with/in love with dazai and that it’s just a cry for help and approval. this is just me trying to imagine the scene where akutagawa decided that his goal was trying to get dazai’s approval.

“Does it hurt, Akutagawa?” Dazai said in a cold hiss. 

There was an angry look in his eyes as there usually was after every minuscule mistake made, but there was something else to it. Something more crazed, more feral. Like a rabid animal inflicting its own suffering onto anything it could sink its teeth into. He was holding the younger man by the collar, keeping him from collapsing onto the ground.

“You’re pathetic. You have no clue what real pain is. You’re a failure. You’ll never be good enough for the Port Mafia.” Dazai hissed through gritted teeth. They were words Akutagawa had heard before, but they never failed to make him feel like an ant being slowly burned to death by a kid holding a magnifying glass. That’s what Dazai truly was. A kid. It was easy to forget with his imposing demeanor and annoying pedantic genius. 

Akutagawa found himself unable to speak. His thoughts were swirling and shaky. It was probably the blood loss getting to him. All he could think about was how much he wanted to hear four little words from Dazai: “I’m proud of you.” 

That was it. That was what he wanted more than life. He wanted the person that made him feel like nothing make him feel like something. Was that insane? Probably. 

Dazai threw him down onto his back again. It hurt, it really did, but he had to keep going. He got to his feet shakily. There was a determined look in his eyes as he did.

i’m rereading some of the earlier bsd chapters and i really miss when it felt like a silly little dark humour sitcom revolving around the ADA and the PM. i realize that it’s not going to be like this forever and that asigiri is just building tension for the fight with fyodor, but i really want some of the silliness back.

is it just me or is 15 skk just way better than 22 skk? this may be the stupid brain cell talking.

bsd spoilers!!

do you guys think poe and mushitarou are still in contact with what’s going on with the agency or are they just gonna be like ‘hey guys what’s going o- OH SHIT, THEY’RE ALL DEAD’

finished with fyodor, still gotta draw dazai. sigh.

wait, wait hear me out

souheki with poe as a third wheel who’s kinda into ranpo. when the three of them are together it’s kinda like:

poe: so, uh…

ranpo, already anticipating the kind of thing he’s going to say: poe, my partner’s literally 10 feet away.

poe: ok…

and then he’s just completely miserable around the two of them. and then ranpo will ask poe to drive him and dazai places and it’s just really awkward.

i’m scared guys. skk is growing on me. 😭 so errrrr, i guess i’m a skk shipper now.

a redraw of art from february 2024 because i’m procrastinating :D

bsd spoilers!!

if you’re having a bad day, just remember ranpo’s found father died. he’s probably having a worse one.

wip i’m probably never finishing.

i appreciate both short hair and long hair femzai, but i feel like she’d have a shoulder length mullet or something. i’m saying this as someone who had a mullet at one point in time 😭.

i hate when people characterize atsushi as an uwu soft boy. he is a sarcastic asshole towards akutagawa and dazai in the manga and i love that about him, silly little guy. ‘what are you, a lawnmower???’ -atsushi nakajima.

random ranpo drawing. can you tell this is low effort and an excuse to try a new brush?

vent art of dazai again because i fucking hate him and want him to be as miserable as I am.

the lyrics at the top are from mr. capgras encounters a second hand verity by will wood and the tapeworms.

‘sskk this!’ ‘atsulucy that!’ ‘akulucy this!’ okay, but what about atsuakulucy? poly ships solve all problems. instead of fighting, we just kiss.

I'm in a mood.. to draw Teruko. Would U like to be tagged after I finish it? Or just ignore?

Had to ask you about this bc ur the number one teruko defender, ofc 🙏🙏

yes! tag me in it of course. ^^

some older digital art. i made fyo look a little too feral. i don’t post my digital art enough. :3

season three spoilers:

my face after i stabby stab a mafia boss then run away.

here’s the finished teruko drawing! the lighting’s shitty, i’m sorry.

edit: i just realized this was my first drawing of 2025! happy new year!

it’s a wip and i’m already suffering 😭

if any of you wanna see my old shitty art i don’t have saved here’s my other blog which i haven’t posted actual content on in 7 months.

@idkilikestuff it’s all really bad. don’t judge me.

fukuchi haters are incorrect. that is all. now applaud./hj

this art is kinda old but i want to show you guys how utterly shitty my old art style was 😭. the shading, hair, lighting, anatomy, and lineart are horrible, i know.

i was one of the only people who could actually draw in my art class last year so i got told it was really good. i hate it now. 😊🔫

um, hi

i might not post art for a bit because i’m working on a project that takes a long amount of time. in the meantime i’ll probably show you guys some of my older art or my class of 09 doodles. i’m cooking, i promise.

since most of you were excited to see my bsd oc i finally drew them! it’s not my best work, but it’s cute. details below drawing

name: lou richardson

organization: The Order of the Clocktower (ex vigilante.)

ability: psych ward’s radio. whoever lou touches begins to hear a shrill static noise in their ears that almost sounds like garbled human screams. these frequencies consume the users brain in 5 minutes.

birth date: april 27th

height: unknown

weight: unknown

age: 27

ship: none, agatha possibly

likes: music, quiet spaces, old films, and sweets.

dislikes: authorities, crowded areas, and hypocrites.

hmmmm…

‘ch- chuuya cried when dazai left the mafia 🥺’

I AM GOING TO SKIN YOU ALIVE./j

i got a few details wrong in the post above, the sheep only ever viewed chuuya as a weapon and it took shirase seeing chuuya getting beaten up in stormbringer to truly see him as a human being. the scene with yuan in fifteen was more of a ‘hey, we like being able to use this person as a weapon’. yuan isn’t an important character and doesn’t do much for the plot, i don’t understand the hate towards her because she’s irrelevant. i also got a bit wrong about dazai in that scene, he finds it stupid that chuuya doesn’t notice that the sheep are manipulating him. he’s not jEaLoUs. the general sentiment still stands though. i will edit this later. oh, i also added tags so people will see this follow-up because past lou is fucking stupid.

rant #4

can some (not all) bsd fans stop hating on yuan for just FUCKING TOUCHING CHUUYA’S ARM??? especially since she walked in hugging onto shirase’s arm as well. it doesn’t have to be taken as romantic, i personally see the sheep as chuuya’s found family. that touch was literally just a ‘hey, can you not force my best friend into joining your organization?’ (also dazai wasn’t ‘jealous’ in that scene. it was ‘oh shit. this girl’s getting in the way of my plan’.) it’s SO fucking stupid that if a female character (it’s always a female character) is even remotely close to dazai, akutagawa, chuuya, or atsushi people hate her because she’s ‘gEtTiNg In ThE wAy Of SsKk/SkK’. there could be a scene where a female character is like ‘hey, i’m really close friends with dazai but we have no romantic interest in each other’ and the fandom would still hate her. with all the disrespect i can manage, eat dirt if that’s the only reason you hate yuan/higuchi/lucy. if you have a reason you’re willing to explain for hating them, please send it to me. this has been lou, your very pissed genderfluid lesbian host. thank you for reading this. i know it’s a spinoff of my last rant but i feel like it needed to be said. thank you for reading if you did.

little kyouka doodle with the markers i got for christmas

rant #4

can some (not all) bsd fans stop hating on yuan for just FUCKING TOUCHING CHUUYA’S ARM??? especially since she walked in hugging onto shirase’s arm as well. it doesn’t have to be taken as romantic, i personally see the sheep as chuuya’s found family. that touch was literally just a ‘hey, can you not force my best friend into joining your organization?’ (also dazai wasn’t ‘jealous’ in that scene. it was ‘oh shit. this girl’s getting in the way of my plan’.) it’s SO fucking stupid that if a female character (it’s always a female character) is even remotely close to dazai, akutagawa, chuuya, or atsushi people hate her because she’s ‘gEtTiNg In ThE wAy Of SsKk/SkK’. there could be a scene where a female character is like ‘hey, i’m really close friends with dazai but we have no romantic interest in each other’ and the fandom would still hate her. with all the disrespect i can manage, eat dirt if that’s the only reason you hate yuan/higuchi/lucy. if you have a reason you’re willing to explain for hating them, please send it to me. this has been lou, your very pissed genderfluid lesbian host. thank you for reading this. i know it’s a spinoff of my last rant but i feel like it needed to be said. thank you for reading if you did.