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❝ they say my hunger's a problem . . . ❞

UUGUFHFHFGHFT i MiSS THE PSYCH WARD PLS BRiNG ME BACK PLSPLSOLSOLS !!!! i MiSS iT SMM i MiSS PPL ACKNOWLEDGiNG THAT iM OUT MY FUCKiNG MiNDDD !!!! i MiSS THE NURSE i MiSS MY FRiENDS i MiSS iT PLS BRiNG ME BACK !!!!! ⸝⸝ ‹𝟹

im sososososooo tempted to js od rn js so they have to take me in . what if i took a whole bottle of ibuprofen ?? drank down some of the vodka in the kitchen js to add a little flavor ?? i dont wanna be coherent , i wanna be out of my minddddd i fucking hate this feeling in my chest plsplspls someone take it outttttttt ⸝⸝ ‹𝟹

living is so pointless !!!! sosososo stupid !!! i'm not even upset rn !! i'm so excited to go back cus ppl like me CANT live w people !! i needdddd to be locked up rahhhhh !!!! ⸝⸝ ‹𝟹

❝ . . . they tell me to curb my appetite . ❞

I wanna be unconscious.

"are you seeing anyone?"

bro like dating or hallucinations?

They look my life and let me live

Death is creeping in

I feel it in my skin

Can I reach the light

If I don’t want to live

Holding on to life

Is not my fight to fight

If I’m not with you

In oceans deep, where the darkness grows

I’ve built a wall, a heart of stone

No whispering winds, no embers glow

I choose the dark, I walk alone

No visitors allowed

No exit to leave

What’s done is done

In solitude, I choose me

As if life just kept going, the world spinning, people laughed, talking, breathing –

... and you're standing in the middle of it, but motionless. Mute. Decoupled.

As if you were just a spectator of your own existence.

Just a poem I wrote..

So let the winds carry my body,

To brighter places, where you might be,

Lift me up above the clouds

I’ll search all of Tennessee

I wish I didn’t have to unlove,

But know, in dreams, you’re still my dove

A love that never quite got to run

We walked, we crawled, and laid to rest under the sun

I wish I didn’t have to unlove

A bottomless black hole I see

Where nothing lives, and sadness feeds

A soul rotting into the other

Decomposing in the depths of eternity

In the vast darkness that entangles me

I’ll always remember you in the fall

That’s where it first began

I wish I didn’t have to unlove you at all.

You ask why I didn't reply to your text

I wanted too

But the weight of a conversation felt impossible to carry

You ask why I dont text back

I tried too

But I was scared id say the wrong thing

You ask why I never tell you things

I want to

But im scared you'll hate me for everything I do

You ask why I dont talk

I tried too

The words couldnt seem to come out

You ask why I dont wanna be your friend

I want to

But I couldnt handle you leaving

So I left first

How about both 😎

Pfft physical pain? Have you ever tried having bpd

Friend may I propose: The Wisp Sings

I want someone to love me

To choose me, to risk something for me

God knows no one has tried