Just Thinking About How Funny It Would Be If The Wizards In Mismag Hadn't Heard Of Lord Of The Rings

defenestrate me please so I stop feeling these things

I feel crazy about Elias's scar, I feel crazy I feel insane, he bears the mark of his own kindness, a young and hungry, brilliant scientist who forces himself to live in a world of logic, wincing at his own reflection in the mirror because he has to face the evidence of his own emotion and righteousness adorned in blood.

The way he has to pull his hat down to hide it, which means he always has to keep his eyes to the ground, his scar literally barring him from human connection.

How he's thought of that girl who looked at him and actually smiled for Years because it means she saw his face and wasn't afraid.

Somebody through me out a WINDOW I'm LOSIN it

thinking about marya and how when you think you've lost everything you still have something. even if that something is worms you hid in the back of a chair. her silk shirts and her youth and her love for the world and for adventure. trauma is hard and bad and it strips you of everything you were and everything you think you'll ever be and it leaves you to waste. but somewhere there are worms you left in the back of a chair. and you'll wear silk shirts again. and your friends will write your story better than you ever could. and you are that person and you always will be. and some young mech-wielding bright-eyed transfem will worship the ground you walk on.

I'm like really okay and fine I swear

me: this hobby or piece of media is so comforting to me

also me: *sobbing my eyes out about it nonstop*

just thinking about jawbone saying "you're easy to love" to adaine at the end of sophomore year and sobbing what about it

idk about anyone else but I get so damn excited when closed captions are referenced or like there's easter eggs in the captions like it's the best thing I'm so tired of missing stuff because the captions are bad so when this happens it's great

"I love you"

"I think we're in a lot of trouble"

okay so given the circumstances I get the stress but damn silver that is not a good response to your girlfriend saying I love you for the first time

you ever just see a super niche piece of d&d advice (idek if this is the right word for it) and feel an itch in your bones to make an entire zine that's effectively an essay talking about how much you dislike it and the ableist implications of it being enforced at tables but it's just for you because you don't share your thoughts with other human beings that'd be wild and you don't particularly feel like being told it's not actually ableist and you're just oversensitive and can't take a joke today. no just me never mind dw about it

im here because of ur trans bad kids post i feel like kristen is transfem (which sort of doesnt work with the story but its a headcanon so. shhh) and realized later in life that you can be nonbinary and trans and probably uses any pronouns (sending an ask because i dont want my mutuals to know im into d20. ok thats all bye :3) (extra note we have the same pronouns! which i think is cool)

the amount of respect I have for trans headcanons that don't make sense in the story but just Feel Right ™️ is truly unbridled. transfem kristen is so good yes, I love the idea that helio expected his chosen one to be a dudebro fratboy and he instead got a chaos gnc lesbian.

also xe/they pronouns are objectively the best ones I don't make the rules

the anxiety I felt with adaine not having her top button done up was truly a secondary school moment I was hoping never to have to relive

excited to have landlords in the sims so I can lock them in disgusting rooms until they die