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over and over again, c!fundy.

Okay I have an idea for a Chicago Fire episode.

So Ritter gets hurt bad in the sense that he's in critical condition for a bit but not bad enough that he has to leave or dies.

Now hear me out. I want to see how this affects Gallo. They're best friends and Gallo relies on him more than anyone else. We would get even more of them. We could see Gallo struggling at the house again and we could have Casey talking to him. Casey might bring up Andy and Gallo shut him up immediately because he doesn't want to hear the possibility of Ritter dying. We could have someone (probably Violet) asking why he's in the kitchen so much and he says something about him and Ritter cooking for the house and that being in the kitchen helps him with his thoughts. He doesn't go to Molly's often, choosing to visit Ritter and at the end of the episode Sharon or Ethan tell him the good news.

I would also like to see Hermann and Mouch's worried father thing. They brought him and helped shape him. Hermann would be taking it really hard since he's his Lieutenant, he's the one who orders Ritter around in fires. Mouch and Hermann's friendship could be shown a bit more with Mouch reassuring Hermann it's not his fault (it isn't his fault it's the fires fault) and Hermann telling Mouch that bringing Ritter to 51 was the right decision (remember Ritter wanted to quit in season 7).

We could also see some of Eric. We could see how this takes a toll on their relationship. I know we've seen it before and Eric knows the risks of Ritter's job but seeing his bf in a hospital bed could make him think. We could see Gallo bonding with Eric.

I dunno though it's just a thought.

I've been called out and I don't like it-

I just wanna give a shout out to all the gifted burn out kids who are most likely LGBT, have self esteem issues, hyper fixate, and are either sensitive or show no emotion at all [no in between]

Aka Logan stans

I can't with this-

i felt that.

in both music and spanish.

(PS sight reading SUCKS especially when you sight read in front of the class alone rather than with a bunch of people)

“Join jazz band,” they said.

“It’ll be fun,” they said.

Because sometimes, logan, it needs to break several times before it glows and your one of those glowsticks-

the others need to break you several times before you glow 😭

I made it super angsty im sorry!

Have some Logan angst that I drew

And yes I know the hand sucks okay 😭🤚

It's okay. Take your time. I get it. Life is really shitty for everyone at this point. And you need a break. I hope you feel better and I will help you kill covid!

I’ll probably go on a total Tumblr hiatus for a week or so because of some stuff happening in my personal life, and I just really don’t feel like posting or really doing anything.

My friends have been acting like assholes to me, everything’s just falling apart and I can’t do this anymore.

Me in Nevada: 🙂

Me thinking: wait a minute

Me now: that's a lie

Happy inauguration everyone!

Someone’s actually gonna care about the East Coasters dying! Someone’s actually gonna care about California burning! Someone’s gonna care!

...

Me: stops doing homework and starts reading cause ive been working for eight and a half hours

my dad: *comes downstairs*

me: thinking* oh no

him: lectures me and does the infamous “Im not mad im disappointed”

me: answering his questions and saying stuff

him: *misinterprets it*

my brain: wtfff stop misinterpreting stuffffffffffffffffffffffffff

him: *walks upstairs*

me: *realises my stepmum heard everything* well shi-

I hope things get better for you and your family too

So I'm fucking done. I can't do my schoolwork without taking ages because I get distracted easily. Now I'm on edge because I heard gunshots last night nearby. And not even a month ago a crazy person banged on our door. I'm fucking tired and sleep deprived. My brain hates me. I'm in a lot of pain too because I got hurt somehow a while back and it's acting up again. Ive given up on 2021 already...

My friends wonder why I hide shit about myself but like this kid and this teacher knew I was german.

AND

This kid was in my science class too and had the AUDACITY to get mad when I said I didn't like him. He asked me if I liked him and I said without hesitation "No" and he was upset. He said I should like him. But I wasn't taking it. I said "I don't care what you think. I don't like you. And I don't have to explain myself to you."

First off why the fuck would I like you. I don't care if it's platonically or romantically. This kid literally hurt me too. I don't are if it was accidental. You shouldnt have been phisically fighting with someone in class in the first place.

Second off I don't even know you. I never bothered to know who the "popular" kids were.

Third off this happened THE SAME DAY as him calling all germans corrupt.

Just remembered that time some old white lady in North Carolina cursed me out and threatened me because I’m from New Jersey.

I literally didn’t do shit to her. I was lost in a Walmart looking for a Christmas present for my cousin and she came up to me and asked me what I was looking for.

“Oh, I’m looking for a present for my cousin.”

Her whole demeanor changed when I spoke cause of my accent (I know I have a very strong New Jersey accent, people tell me all the time).

“Are you from New York?”

“No, I’m actually from New Jersey.”

She just started cursing me out, calling me a Yankee and shit. I’m just standing there so confused trying not to cry. Normally, I would’ve cursed right back at her, but I was too shocked. So I just stood there.

What am I even supposed to say to that? I was just so confused. She literally said, “Go die, Northern trash” to me. How am I supposed to respond to that?

I felt that. I literally know how that feels. Back in 7th grade we were reading about the holocaust. I was born in Germany and raised there until right before my 7th birthday. I was never ashamed of being from Germany and was proud of being from there. I never bragged about it because I didn't care whether or not people knew.

We were reading "Parallel Journeys" if I remember correctly. This kid, let's call him Brock, stood up and yelled "All germans are corrupt." And nearly everyone in class knew I was a german so they looked at the teacher. She, let's call her Ms. Soul, just said only the jews aren't corrupt.

Everyone looked at me and waited for my reaction. I just looked at the table ashamed. My teacher continued on with the lesson.

Just remembered that time some old white lady in North Carolina cursed me out and threatened me because I'm from New Jersey.

I literally didn't do shit to her. I was lost in a Walmart looking for a Christmas present for my cousin and she came up to me and asked me what I was looking for.

"Oh, I'm looking for a present for my cousin."

Her whole demeanor changed when I spoke cause of my accent (I know I have a very strong New Jersey accent, people tell me all the time).

"Are you from New York?"

"No, I'm actually from New Jersey."

She just started cursing me out, calling me a Yankee and shit. I'm just standing there so confused trying not to cry. Normally, I would've cursed right back at her, but I was too shocked. So I just stood there.

What am I even supposed to say to that? I was just so confused. She literally said, "Go die, Northern trash" to me. How am I supposed to respond to that?

Fuck my geometry teacher.

We have exams coming up next week. Tuesday for his class. And he decides its a good idea to have us do a TEST and give us more HOMEWORK. What the actual fuck. We have EXAMS. What made him think it was a good idea?!

Anyways, how's your day going?

Omg it issssssssss

So about 3 months back I got kicked out of a Logan Angst Chat thing on Tumblr.

I got kicked out for writing something angsty in there for Logan and the person running it said I was being mean to Logan. I asked how and they kicked me out. Now I ask again WHY?!

Why was I kicked out for doing something in an ANGST server that was ANGST?! for the character who you're SUPPOSED to write angst for and I didn't make ANY of the others unsympathetic (even though I wanted to) so what did I do wrong?

Same! I had a default win yesterday too!

I rarely get imposter and so I was playing and everyone kept hitting the goddamn emergency meeting button so I didn't even get to kill!

Okay I played a round of Among Us yesterday with two imposters. There were six of us left, and two people claimed to be imposter and asked to be voted out. I didn't vote for either of them, because I know neither of them were the imposter.

You wanna know how I knew neither of them were imposter?

BECAUSE I WAS IMPOSTER WITH GREEN. JFC PEOPLE PISS ME OFF. I WON BY DEFAULT. I HATE WINNING BY DEFAULT.

I just finished watching a horror movie (wasn't scary) and HES A FUCKING YANDERE

I won't spoil it but the movie is called the curse of downer grove or something like that on hulu

BUT HOLY SHIT HES A FUCKING YANDERE

Get ready for them realising it so fast and so Logan snaps-

We've seen Janus disguising himself as Logan because he thinks the light sides and Thomas listen to Logan, now get ready for:

Logan disguising himself as Virgil because he knows the light sides and Thomas listen to Virgil!

When I saw Nico I thought "Are you kidding me Roman? That's LOGAN!"

I'm mad about the new video.

That's all you need to know.

Except about Roman getting love and Thomas being happy.

That I love

But we ALL know all the fanders are going to talk about Virgil

And Prinxiety

I have a thought

So the next episode is most likely going to be a Roman episode, right?

Well imagine it focuses on stuff Roman likes so he feels better. And they bring up Harry Potter and one of them says "It's Sirius's birthday! Can we celebrate it/do something for it? I mean we don't have anything to do today anyways."

And Logan stares at them.

He doesn't say a word but he's hurt.

His birthday so didn't matter to them-

You know what would be funny? If the new Asides episode was set to come out on a significant date.

Like, I don't know, Halloween.

Or maybe... November 3rd?

BREAK MY HEART WHY DONT YOU!

THAT WAS UNCALLED FOR

But seriously, I think I know what your referring too.

You know what would be funny? If the new Asides episode was set to come out on a significant date.

Like, I don't know, Halloween.

Or maybe... November 3rd?

I need to find this

So theres this sanders sides fanfic i read where the sides turn into teens. and logans the youngest (12 i think) and he gets kidnapped. then the others get kidnapped too. then logan gets sent to a different dimension and the other sides take him in (the dark sides, well light sides of the dimension) then they call virgil and logan overhears him say the other logan is better (the logan from the alternate universe)

please help me find it. ive been looking for it for literal months

I'm sorry to say this

But (with the captions on)

It says "disbelieving noise" when Logan gets called cool ;-;

Ladies.

Raping your boyfriend or husband is not something to be proud of.

If you think it is, you belong in the dump. It's not cute, it's not an accomplishment. It makes you a shitty person.

Don't fucking argue with me on this. If you try to give me an excuse for why it's okay, I will just reiterate that you belong in the dump, honey, because you do.

Women have to be held to the same standards, but for some fucked up reason, people think it's fucking sexism or shit like that. I will never fucking understand that.

And I am so sorry you had to go through that! I know it probably doesn't help and that the damage is already done, but I still am so sorry for that and I hope that one day the world will realise how fucked up it is and how fucked up kids will/are be if/since this continues happening!

Women and girls shouldn't get lighter punishments for rape.

When I was seven, I was raped multiple times by a female teacher. She would keep me after school or keep me in during recess because I had "work." And she would touch me in ways I didn't like and it escalated to rape. I didn't fully understand what was happening, but I knew it was bad. When I told someone, they thought I was joking.

When I was nine, I had an autistic female friend, who was twelve at the time and one of my friend's older sister. She didn't understand there were rules for how you showed you like someone, and she kissed me and touched me and eventually forced herself on me. I told my other friends, including that girl's brother, and they said I couldn't be mad at her because she was a girl and she was autistic. So I tried to forgive her, but I can't.

When I was ten, I had to go to the high school for band and I met this junior girl. She was nice to me. I trusted her and I trusted she would treat me well and be nice to me. I saw her as an older sister, buy that's not how she felt. She asked me to do sexual things with her and I said no. She got angry and threatened me if I didn't, so I did. I let her do whatever she wanted to me. And when I tried to tell the principal, he ignored it.

When I was eleven, I was in marching band, and I was good at my instrument. I met a fourteen year old girl who also played the same instrument, and we started dating. I didn't realize she was manipulating me until I got a little older. I was naive and innocent. It started out as a normal friendship, she said I was good at playing my instrument. She was sweet, she called me smart. But when she had me pinned to the wall, I realized she didn't care how good I was at the saxophone. For two years this went on. I was with her for two years and let her do these things to me because I was scared of what she would do if I didn't. When I told my cousin, she thought I was joking and laughed.

And then, I was twelve. I had a friend who was my age. I met her in class. She was nice to me. Finally, a girl who just wanted to be my friend. Who didn't want to screw me. We would spend all our free time together. Hours every day, talking and playing video games. She was a great friend. And then, she said we would be a good couple. I had trauma from the last four girls who said that, and I immediately told her no. So, naturally, she screwed me and kept my hoodie. I went home that night feeling like pure shit. It was snowing too, and I had to walk home in a t shirt. I didn't stop crying for a week. She tried to talk to me, but I ran away. I couldn't tell my parents. Why would they ever believe me anyway? Nobody else did.

So yeah, women who rape deserve every ounce of the same punishment men who rape do. The females who raped me got no punishment. It's not a symbol of female empowerment. It's not something to be proud of. It's fucked up and I have to live with the memories of these five females sexually abusing me. I have to be ashamed of my past because of what these women did to me, and I know I'm not the only one.

I just needed to talk about this because I see women who talk about raping their SO like it's something to be proud of. It's not, get in the dumpster, love.

Holy shit! That kid better not have done what I thought he did!

And who found him stepping off the chair?

If it was a sibling, I will probably cry!

Logan Ramirez- Suicide by hanging- Age ten

I mean, this is gonna be a fucked up story because I graciously gifted young, sweet, innocent Logan with the most fucked up backstory.

TW: Child abuse, alcohol mention, violence, blood, rape, bullying, homophobia, racism, self harm, suicide.

The blood soaked straight through the black cotton sleeves of Logan's jacket. He had tried to make it stop before he left for school, but failed and immediately regretted cutting right before school. Remy saw it the second he noticed Logan. He grabbed his arm and rolled his sleeve back.

"Logan, please..." he begged him to listen. Logan pulled his arm away.

"Remy, I don't think there's anything you or I could do to fix this." It was true, anyone could see it. Logan Ramirez was so far gone that nobody would ever get him back. Logan was suddenly thrown into a locker. He felt warm blood soak the back of his jacket.

At least it'll match the sleeves now, Logan thought.

"Hey, whore!" the eighth grader who'd pinned him against the locker sneered. "What happened to your arm? Is your mama beating you?"

"No, I did it to myself," Logan deadpanned. No reason to hide it anymore. Nobody would care anyway. The boy pushed him harder against the locker and got right in his face.

"Yeah, faggot? You cut yourself? Why?" Logan didn't answer. He didn't even look the boy in the eyes. He didn't cry or scream. He remained silent. The boy threw him to the floor and someone else threw Remy down. A group of kids surrounded them, laughing at them.

"Go to hell, faggots!" A girl's voice called.

"Nobody wants you here, brownies!" Another voice called. Everyone laughed. Remy cried. Logan's expression didn't change in the slightest. Logan silently and emotionlessly took the beat down he was getting. When the hallway cleared, he and Remy ran to the bathroom, which was empty, thank God. They attempted to clean up the blood, but knew it was hopeless at that point. It had already soaked through their clothes and they were all bruised up anyway. They heard the door open and Remy paled with fear.

The boy was older, maybe seventh grade. He locked eyes with Logan and lunged at him, pinning him to the wall.

"Get off of him!" Remy shouted.

"Shut it!"

"Remy, don't-" The boy covered Logan's mouth until Logan stopped trying to talk. Remy ran from the bathroom to go ask for help, but nobody ever came back.

The older boy reached into Logan's pants.

"Yeah, I bet you like that, faggot! So robotic! Maybe you'll finally feel something. Fag!" Logan tried to remain emotionless. He'd been so good at being emotionless. He'd done so well at faking it. He hadn't shown any emotion in public for years.

But when the boy had pulled down his pants and started doing unspeakable things to him, Logan screamed.

"Ayudame! Remy, ayudame!"

But nobody ever came back.

Five minutes later, Logan was left on the bathroom floor alone, curled into himself, sobbing. He wanted to go home, but home was worse.

That afternoon, he walked home, completely numb for the first time. He'd always been great at hiding emotions, but he still felt them until now.

Logan's mother immediately ordered him to cook dinner for himself and his siblings, and he silently obeyed. An empty beer bottle narrowly missed his head and broke on the window.

"You can't do anything right!" she screamed. Logan remained silent. He couldn't make himself talk even if he wanted. She threw another beer bottle. This time, she hit him. Logan ignored the blood and started cleaning up the broken glass. She picked him up and started hitting him, all the while Logan didn't make a sound. He ran to his room the second he got a chance and broke down sobbing. Logan never wanted this. Then, his eyes fell on a long piece of thick rope. He didn't bother writing a note. Nobody, not even Remy, would care enough to read it.

Logan tied the rope to the ceiling, stood on his chair, and tied it around his neck. He stared out the window, tears still rolling down his cheeks. But now, he was smiling weakly. He heard someone run up the stairs.

"I'm sorry, Remy. I love you," he whispered. Just when the door burst open, Logan stepped off the chair.

-----

I'm sorry.

Projecting? No, not me. Of course not.

Ayudame translates to "help me".

when  have they given credit though?

Head canon: Logan is the reason why Thomas can sing so well! Logan sings amazingly and Thomas learned unconsciously from him, assuming it was Roman

oh right

when does he ever take the burden?

never

Virgil: L?

Logan: *holding baby Remus and Roman, doing his geometry homework, and talking on the phone with Janus* Yeah, Virge?

Virgil: You amaze me.

Logan: Aw, thank you, you amaze me too. *leans in and kisses him*

Virgil: I- uh- th- thanks.

me

something 10x better

when you realise the characters name is super close to another characters-

When you have so many baby name tabs open and it’s just because you’re trying to name a character….