You Are Running Away Without Looking Back, Carrying The Future And The Past, Unable To Let It Go..

The way you maintained eyes contact was insane, I stared at the depth of their blackness before they had slowly fallen on my lips and I got shivers over all my body...your hand on my waist made me completely lose control and surrender to whatever willpower you've been holding against me..

Remember when we were about to jump into the waves? You grabbed my hand with all your strength and said to me, *'Just know that if I hold your hand, I will never let it go.'* Then we jumped, and the waves crashed over us while our hands were still clasped together. I still don't know if he was just talking about the game we were playing, or if he was trying to tell me how faithful he is. However, even the pressure of the water couldn't tear us apart... Summer has been over for months now. I’ve tried going out on several dates, but whenever someone tries to get close to me, I see him in my memory. He took my soul with him and flew away, and now I’m no longer capable of falling in love again. My heart already belongs to him.

Happy birthday to me <3

I guess the opposite of loneliness is not intimacy, but the ability to exchange profound thoughts with another human being who has this capacity of going through your mind, feeling your words and receiving their meaning, life is pointless when a part of your existence is invisible to others, The real tragedy is when no one comprehends your inner depth.

I'd have thrown up my heart if it were possible, buried this helpless soul alive.. and burned this cruel body. So please tell me how a human being can get rid of himself without being personally involved. The obligation to feed this body every single day gets on my nerves. Your instinct dumb and stupid forces your entire existence to submit, with no way to rebel. You might get bold and throw yourself from the edge, but suddenly, without your permission, you'll find your body fighting for life. It's such a betrayal. I'm neither depressed nor suicidal. I only reclaim my right to be free. I was given free will yet a robotic body, so at the end of the day, you realize how trapped you are with no way out.

This obscurity doesn't frighten the shit out of me, we both are so similar to each other, I'd stare at the abyss and I'd see a reflection of my body, if you ever believed that the notion of colors doesn't exist, you will turn blind but at least awake for eternity...

I didn't realize how harsh life was on me until I was overwhelmed by the gentle acts of my closest friends. They made me realize how much love is capable of bringing life to a dead body. I’m loved for being me with my childish acts and my sarcastic mouth. I've been loved so easily, without any effort to fit in. I've been held and fought for. Oh God, how long is it going to take me to believe that I deserve this, that I’m amazing just the way I am..

You were staring at me.. assuming that you still hold any power over me...however, I looked away with an empty eyes and that was my revenge...

The plot has never failed to excite me and keep me interested..but what do you mean by repeating the same script over and over.. expecting me to give a fuck... anyway this love is getting so cold.. and I crave what you can't afford..

I'm so confused..I have no idea if my agony is due to saying goodbye to summer, because the guy I spent my vacation with left the country, or maybe both reasons combined were enough to bury me alive. My emotions for him didn't realize how close the end was from the beginning. I pretended not to care and went through the whole process of falling in love with him. I lived in the moment and didn't overthink the future. It was so strong that our willpower couldn’t avoid any attachments. I belonged to him, and every inch of him belonged to me. So, the minute he was packing his luggage, I was about to faint. Time, indifferent to our feelings, took him away, leaving me with so many memories, so many photos of him, and his name still stuck in my head...

See you next year love <3