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buck and eddie returning to their home from their first date and they’re just so giddy and excited and happy and adorable

but they want to take it slow, they don’t wanna jump into having sex, so they also kind of don‘t know how to go on from here because… they live together and they just had their first date

so eddie just grabs two beers from the fridge, sits down on the couch next to buck and proceeds to tell his best friend buck about this amazing date he was on and how he thinks that this was his last first date ever, and that he wants to marry the man he was on a date with because this is it for him

and buck tells his best friend eddie that that’s funny because he also was just on a date with this amazing man and he also thinks this was the man he‘s gonna spend the rest of his life with

because they’re best friends first and foremost and they always will be

Invisible Boys has stuck with me heavily since watching it, especially Hammer! Can I ask from a hands on creative POV what you felt Hammers inner monologue was in the last episode? I think the mirror scene reflected so well the joy and then ultimately the terror and heartbreak he was feeling. And on top of that his family (specifically the stark contrast between his aunt and his mum). And then of course his friends and “girlfriend” too. I just really can’t stop thinking about him (and Zeke UGH) and will take any takes and comments from all angles!

Hello! So glad the show connected with you!

Hammer was such a bittersweet ending and Zach gives such an incredible performance. I wanted him to get everything he wanted and worked so hard all his life to achieve only to discover in that moment that maybe he’d been chasing the wrong things. And I wanted Aunty Doris to be the only real witness to it (it’s the only moment in the show where we’re in the perspective of someone who isn’t one of the four boys). For me his journey particularly and Matt’s (and I guess the whole show) is summed up in Matt’s last words of “I just couldn’t see it”. For me that’s been one of the biggest life lessons. If you can’t imagine something truly happening then it won’t. And I think for hammer, he just couldn’t see it. How could Zeke be part of his afl world? How could he openly embrace that aspect of himself? He just couldn’t reconcile the different parts of himself… at least at this current moment. If the show ever continues, that may change for Hammer…

BTS FACTS: this was all one big take. I just let Zach go for 10 minutes and do whatever he wanted and that’s the place he went to. I wasn’t quite sure what he’d do so I just whispered in the camera operator’s ears what to focus on as Zach ran through all those emotions. The bathroom was also actually at Sabrina’s house and we filmed it while they were setting up the party outside and we waited for it to get dark!

I check Black Sails Tumblr every morning like it's the morning newspaper

insane amounts of cunt being served here

hey who has a screenshot of that toby stephens tweet about his earring. you know the one,, it contains the words "an old hole, still open, from my youth." i need it for science purposes

technically black sails is just treasure island fan fiction and clearly it was written by a gay 17 year old girl

I love how vane's speech in 308 foreshadows the revolution's undoing / the characters' ends. like "that is the single most dangerous weapon they possess, the one they tempt: give us your submission, and we will give you the comfort you need." and it all ends because silver yearns for this comfort, to just have a life with madi as his wife. but like vane says "I can think of no measure of comfort worth that price" and in the end there isn't. madi never truly forgives silver, silver spends his life haunted by flint and what he did & all jack and anne get for betraying flint and killing their chances at real systemic change is getting arrested and executed for piracy a few years later.

james flint

watching season 2 of Black Sails is like discovering empathy for the first time

oh... OH.

one time I looked up the ratings of each episode of black sails. I expected to see s2e5 near the top, but I wasn’t exactly surprised when it was actually at the bottom (free us from the clutches of homophobia man). I read some of the comments and they were saying that the reveal felt out of nowhere. Okay, so actually you just have no media literacy skills. For me, the revelation made so much sense that I experienced something akin to ascension. I felt I had unlocked all of the knowledge there was to unlock. My whole engagement with the show changed. That thing that had been bubbling under the whole time, in every interaction between Miranda and flint, in every mention of Thomas, in every display of rage from flint, in each one of his desperate schemes.

I just find it so hilarious that people thought it was out of nowhere? Louise Barnes and Toby Stephens were actually the only two cast members aware of the backstory from the beginning of the show, and you can see it so much in the way they act their characters. So much unspoken, but that doesn’t mean it’s not there. Season 1 ep 7 — that whole altercation they have where he refuses to apologise to England, the way she says ‘if he were here he’d agree with me’, the tension of it all. The note Thomas wrote in the front of their copy of meditations? It’s so obviously not out of the blue, it’s set up so brilliantly so as to evade perception but also to lodge itself in your brain before you even know what *it* is.

Tom Hopper (Billy) said it was the best episode of television he’s ever seen. Literally years later, in a promotional interview for the umbrella academy. I agree wholeheartedly.

saying that it was out of nowhere is just wrong. It’s either a) just a guise for your homophobia or b) a betrayal of your evidently terrible media literacy and critical analysis skills.

When I saw the episode so many things from season 1 finally clicked in to place inside my head. The enigma of Flint, for the first time, began to slightly unravel.

black sails is a show about many things, including queer rage, big ships, monstrosity, cool long coats, the nature of storytelling, peace vs. freedom, threesomes, home, destroying the british empire, lesbian drama, mythologizing, the surprisingly effective power of being a little shit, shame, forehead kisses, the hurdy-gurdy, civilization, being covered in blood, and most importantly, love

asking for a black sails box set for christmas because this show is so scarce and unheard of that i’m terrified one day it will be wiped from existence and i need physical copies of the one and only thing i’ve ever truly cared about🙏

rewatching black sails for the hundredth time again and as expected i’m apprantely incapable of not making it everybody’s business

black sails is basically a group of bisexuals who were sent off to sea and told to do whatever they want and i respect that very much

totally incorrect criminal minds gifs pt 1/2/?

briefly making my quad-yearly appearance on tumblr to tell you all one thing

eddie diaz is gay and autistic

[ID: The text "Me and the bad bitch i pulled by being autistic" above a picture of Eddie and Buck from 9-1-1. END ID]

eddie’s autistic swag got him a chaotic audhd bad bitch

just thinkin bout autistic!eddie and how he learns about alexithymia and realizes that’s why it’s so easy for him to get frustrated and not be able verbalize how he’s feeling. He has trouble identifying emotions while he has them, and often needs time to think about things before he fully understands how he feels.

and how he has a set morning routine and when it gets thrown off he gets super upset and dysregulated, so when that happens Buck helps him run through different coping skills and grounding techniques and get back into the routine, and Eddie is like ‘wow… so all those times when I felt like I was going to rip my hair out could have been avoided’

and how people tease buck for his Wikipedia-like knowledge of an array of things but then once Eddie starts unmasking people realize he also has that knowledge but like, more in-depth and for very specific things. Like, he’s probably SO informed on every military ordinance there is, even ones he has no reason to know. His telenovelas? Please, he could name every single episode title and number and exact episodes when each character joined or left (but he only watches to practice his Spanish)

and how he gets hyperfixated on one task during the day sometimes, like he plans on fixing the faucet in the kitchen and by 1PM Buck finds him in the kitchen with the faucet taken apart, twenty different tools lying around him, and him hunched over the table on his laptop watching how-to videos and reading tutorials

and how his attention to detail is so pronounced and he never fully realizes it before but when someone asks him how he caught some random mistake in some form at work, he just shrugs and is like ‘I don’t know, it popped out at me’ and then he gets in his head about how ‘maybe he focuses too much on stuff that doesn’t matter’ and Buck just smiles bc he knows it’s because of his autism and later he’ll tell Eddie how much he loves every part of him and how he’s thankful for all the ways Eddie ‘focuses too much’ because it makes him kind and sensitive.

and how he often doesn’t get jokes and before, he’d just try and follow when everyone else laughs or spend conversations confused because he doesn’t understand the tone, so Buck often whispers when something is a joke vs sarcasm vs serious, and before long he’s able to tell what the tone is just by the look Buck gives him

and how he has systems for how things should go around the house, between packing Christopher’s lunch, to doing the grocery shopping, to how the dishes are done, even to how he and Buck initiate and have sex. And it’s not like it’s this rigid, prescribed thing, it’s just a guideline in his head of ‘these are the conditions under which these things happen’ and it’s probably not even a conscious thing because he learned to mask that awareness so much so early on. But he realizes sometimes that he just feels Bad and can’t figure out why

Idk I could go on and on with autistic!eddie headcanons

Eddie Diaz immediately sending his sweet angelic perfect baby child to therapy when christopher is struggling and then turning to fucking street fighting when he’s the one struggling is the epitome of eddie’s character

i rewatched dennis gets divorced and sometimes i can't believe that episode is real. dennis getting married to maureen and being disappointed that she's not, well... mac. he wants to do with her the same shit he did with mac, calls her dude, wants to watch the same movies he watches with mac and slowly starts realizing he misses the structure that mac gives to him. when he goes to the strip club with the gang, it's not about getting laid with women. he doesn't give a shit about that at all, barely pays attention to the women, doesn't flirt with anyone. at the end of the night, who does he bring home with him? mac. and then maureen comes in. we know that everyone outside the gang is like an outsider but maureen is an outsider to whatever the fuck dennis and mac have going on, specifically. nobody could replace mac in dennis' life and the example they chose was a romantic partner. they go to the bar and share casual intimate moments, like mac brushing his teeth and them getting dressed together. it's not like they have many choices but it's interesting that they chose to show this. he can't stand having maureen living with him for a few days and yet can't bare the idea of not living with mac. the apartment is mostly his and mac doesn't contribute with rent. it'd be more beneficial to live alone and see mac like he sees the gang. but no, he wants mac with him. they're soulmates all the way.

i’ve been waiting for this transition

i’m gay but like somehow still not this gay and one of these characters isn’t even gay but yet gayer than i am

"Your opponent's wrist is from whence the attack is born. It is its past tense from which it cannot separate itself.

The end of the blade, where the attack arrives, is its present tense, which also cannot be denied."

Black Sails XXXVII

THIS. hit the mark right on the nose with this one. didn’t even realise i knew this so deeply and intrinsically in my bones (no pun intended SIKE i am but a girl pls don’t expect much from me ever x)

woke up remembering that time vane concocted this gigantic scheme to recruit billy by literally sailing on rowboats to charlestown and stealing flints ship… but billy was too hetero to be equally insane so vane went to save flint instead in the gayest way possible and blow up the city

i read black sails as black snails ONCE. one fucking time. and now everytime i read it i read snails.

i want my misery to end.

this is the gayest shit i’ve ever seen

this will never fail to make me laugh but also give me an option for “it would change absolutely nothing”

would gay sex fix them?

James Flint Is Gay: A Meta Post

[slides into the Black Sails fandom late with Starbucks]

Hey! What’s up! Here’s a post no one asked for but I wrote mostly for me. Before we get into it, I’ve got some big notices to put on the top here.

DISCLAIMER: If you interpret James as bi, and you prefer that, I am not trying to say you can’t do that or to convince you otherwise! 

You do you! If you’re not cool with seeing him as gay, please do us both a favor and keep scrolling past this post! I’m mildly aware that this fandom has a history of rough discourse surrounding this topic, but I cannot emphasize enough that I am new here, and this post is not an attack. Please do me the courtesy of not attacking me or blocking me or whatnot because I’m not trying to start drama lol. And for what it’s worth, I myself am bi (well, bi ace), so I’d like to think I’m being objective.

This post exists simply because I like to write meta out with my arguments / evidence lined up in a row; it gets things out of my head and onto a screen, and I find it satisfying. And if I’m doing it anyway, I might as well share.

So if you see James as gay, or have an open mind to that interpretation… please allow me to take you on this adventure under the cut. I’m sure it’s obvious, but this contains spoilers? Lol.

Here we go!

Keep reading

a silly little gay autistic pirate and he’s my best friend

For @vyrd

The things about James Flint/ McGraw (Black Sails) that read as 'my kind' of autistic to me, which matches up with books written about my kind of autism by autism experts, which made me fully identify with that character:

Fundamental social disconnect from other people leading to not pursuing having a family or having hobbies and believes himself to be incapable of being really loved

Is good at work though and intellect earns a lot of praise so focuses on those strengths

Solitude has become imprisoning but is too lacking in social skills or emotional self awareness to get out of it

Live by a very narrow set of rules, remaining independent and invulnerable is very important

When stressed out or becomes overwhelmed with sadness, finds it hard to speak

Entire life has been shaped by mistrust in himself and fear of his own desires

Social isolation as a way of rejecting other people before they can reject him.

Workaholism and devotion to a cause being a sign of autistic hyperfixation

Trouble reading social cues and hesitating initiating contact with other people unless it's a negative situation he can 'fix' and then he's all about that

Deeply and deliberatively analytical

Tends not to get habituated to familiar situations as readily as other people, so often thinks through a repeated situation as if it is completely new, even if it isn't

Repetitiveness is a really key feature of autistic behavior

Withdraws from other people, and there's a feedback look of social disempowerment and shame.

Rigid thinking and extends that rigidity to other people and then can't understand at all when they don't share that rigidity

A lot of Flint's most 'outrageous' behaviors looked like meltdown to me - crying, self harm, outward aggression.

Highly self educated, self starter, but is roundly rejected and disliked by peers. And of course everyone lives in a specific racial, sexual, and class context, so it's hard to tell if his social disconnect from his peers is actually neurodivergent rejection but it looks like class rejection. It could of course be both.

Hyperverbal autistics can have intense and bright personalities but can also seem icy and withdrawn depending on the situation.

Thinks constantly about how he's being perceived and rarely feels at home in any community.

Can think up and 'enact' a very enticing persona, that's immaculate in style, in an effort to have their personhood recognized but then is always misunderstood, and every day is a fight to communicate their real self

He seems to me my type of sensory seeker autistic - crave activity, motion, bright colors, thrills of roller coasters, the clear rules of order on any boat, clear rules of (violent) engagement among pirates and with the actual navies.

Can excel at mentally demanding jobs (like piracy, captaining a ship, maintaining a naval career) but makes diastrous social decisions.

can get so attached to seeing self as brilliant that leads to neglect of physical health in pursuit of goal.

constantly baffled when attempts at communicating clearly are seen as rude or hurtful.

despite being personally powerful, can engage in very fawning behavior - the more invested he is in an emotional connection, the less likely he is to criticize that person or vocalize when his boundaries are crossed, or express unhappiness with that behavior (basically all the shit that goes down with John Silver)

Really fantastic at anticipating what happens next because he spends tons of energy trying to script out what will be said and what he should do next.

When they act as behave naturally (such as in moments of great stress) come off as too much or a cold blooded creep

tendency to object personification - his relationship with his boats - autistics identify with items we love and feel a degree of empathy as if they are alive

when swept up in a special interest, feel extremely alive. work life balance and burnout don't happen to autistics in the way it does for neurotypicals. autistic people get exhausted from socializing a lot instead of woring a lot.

neurotypical people quickly and subconsciously identify peope as autistic and then immediately dislike them. autistics are slightly off - unnatural looking smile, not knowing how to end a conversation - and these behaviors can be seen as scary or unsettling.

tendency to speak in a tone that sounds dry or sarcastic women are often seen as cold or bitchy and men as condescending mansplainers

 tend to get into patterns of intense emotional dependency, combined with insecurity

 yearn to be accepted yet doubt they can be

when people try to connect with autistics, we sometimes rebuff them without realizing it

What's kind of great about the way Flint is written is how we first see him as a captain, a leader, and an utterly selfish one at that; he has his goal of retrieving the gold, and it's the only thing that matters, and he pulls of some tyrannical shit to get to it. But little by little you realize that his megalomania doesn't come from a need to see himself as this great leader; he doesn't want glory for himself, he wants a future for Nassau (whatever that means and it's also interesting how the very idea of what that future might entail also changes during the show). And what I find really interesting is how, despite being in a position of a leader, Flint strikes me as more of a follower. Follower in the sense that his commitment is to other people, and not really himself. Before he was cast out, he and Thomas worked on a plan to secure Nassau, a plan in which Flint wouldn't be the governor. And what gets him out of his S3 funk is Silver and Madi, and I think it's very telling that he sees them as the future, not himself. And tbh I'd say this is one of his best qualities. His dedication to his goal is such that he's willing to step back and relinquish some of his authority in order to achieve what he sees as necessary.

(and you know. The james/thomas/miranda and flint/silver/madi parallel of it all.)