ijustwonderif
poetry
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if we forgive our fathers, what do you we have left?
shameless // Desireé Dallagiacomo // Jamaica Kincaid // euphoria // jobless monday, mitski // Haddon Sandblom // ? // the end of the f world //Smoke Signals // Simone de Beauvoir, The Woman Destroyed
meeting someone you loved in a different life
1. tim seibles | 2. fortesa latifi | 3. yehuda amichai | 4. ocean vuong | 5. benjamin alire sáenz | 6. charlotte brontë | 7. cynthia miller | 8. marie howe | 9. rainer maria rilke | 10. mary oliver
Seb bowing to fans in a parking lot.
source: livia_soos on insta
on growing up
franz wright god's silence: "father roger goes for a walk" \\ @ritikajyala the flesh i burned (visualiser) \\ christoffer relander first snow \\ @goodbyevitamin big star fizzing (at the turn of a new month) \\ deborah stevenson once upon a time \\ pink floyd childhood's end
kofi
Lost Girlhood and the Photography of Justine Kurland
Wuthering Heights, Emily Bronte / “Forest”, Justine Kurland / “Touch Up”, Mother Mother / “Candy Toss,” Justine Kurland / bunnyhauntingthedollshouse / “Poison Ivy”, Justine Kurland / “seven”, Taylor Swift / “Kung Fu Fighters”, Justine Kurland
AUGUST: THE TRUE ENDING OF A YEAR
unknown / @nobodysflower / paul d'amato / mary oliver / @gaycommunist / justine kurland / @sioltach / alida nugent / raymond carver
"You stand red-handed. You want to wash yourself in earth, in rocks and grass
What are you supposed to do with all this loss?"
— trying to wash the guilt away
1. franz kafka, letters to milena 2. album art for el pintor by interpol 3. margaret atwood, morning in the burned house 4. somto ihezue, all the stones that built me 5. jihoon yang, "blue rain", 2020 6. matthew nienow, lupa 7. succession 2x01 8. mitski, "humpty" 9. william shakespeare, macbeth, 2.2.78-81 10. alfred stevens, "lady macbeth".
home is the first grave
@filmnoirsbian x (from @willemdafoegf 's post // catherine lacey // chen chen // silas denver melvin // aloha from hell, richard kadrey // courtney love prays to oregon // @heavensghost // st. lucy’s home for girl’s raised by wolves // x // taylor swift’s “my tears ricochet” // this post @ceemetery
buy me a coffee
“After Language” by Chaia Heller, from My Lover Is a Woman: Contemporary Lesbian Love Poems edited by Lesléa Newman (1996).
André Aciman
obsessed with the opposite of the childhood friends trope. what if we were just some guys meeting for the first time with like. no significance
“So, if you are too tired to speak, sit next to me because I, too, am fluent in silence.”
— R. Arnold
THE PROBLEM WITH WANTING
Tahereh Mafi, Unravel Me / Hozier, Cherry Wine / Stephanie Garber, Legandary / Anna Akhmatova, The Guest / Donna Tartt, The Goldfinch / Anaïs Nin, The Early Diary of Anaïs Nin / Marissa Meyer, Scarlet / Cassandra Clare, City of Glass / Leigh Bardugo, Ruin and Rising / Henry James, The Turn of the Screw
Artist Anastasia Trusova explores the fields of Europe with her landscape paintings, which are overflowing with intense colors.
“There is nothing prettier than a city at 5 AM with its empty streets and cold wind.”
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when you love so much you let it consume you
richard siken - litany in which certain things are crossed out / robert mapplethorpe - white gauze / hsin wang - de-selfing series / benjamin alire saenz - aristotle and dante discover the secrets of the universe / florence and the machine - moderation / hillary mantel - wolf hall / marina abramović and ulay - rest energy / placebo - every you every me / halsey - graveyard / florence and the machine - hardest of hearts / @cvatik / hole - violet / brooke didonato / halsey - whispers (iichliwp website) / richard siken - planet of love / unknown / florence welch - body of water
paramore, “interlude: i’m not angry anymore” / martha gellhorn, selected letters / adonis, selected poems; “rage” (tr. khaled mattawa) / anne carson, plainwater: essays and poetry / carole maso, the art lover / jade bird, “furious” / carmen maria machado, in the dream house
To fall in love is to create a religion that has a fallible god.
Sappho | Leonardo Bistolfi | Safet Zec | Richard Siken | Brokeback Mountain (dir. Ang Lee) | Emery Allen | Ron Hicks | Jorge Luis Borges | Holly Warburton | Richard Siken | Joseph Lorusso
on being her friend
“funeral”, phoebe bridgers / “pink skies”, lany / “jean and susan”, john bratby / “a summer’s tale”, dir. éric rohmer / “cupid’s chokehold / breakfast in america”, gym class heroes / untitled, @doriantomybasil / “piglet’s big movie”, dir. francis glebas / “by means which have never yet been tried” (orphan black: season two, episode ten), dir. john fawcett.
Don’t succumb to chaos, chase dreams not people. Get out of controversies, you have no guilt that’s been implanted in you from the moment you were born.
poetry-siir ©
No sucumbas al caos, persigue sueños no a personas. Salte de las controversias, no tienes ninguna culpa que te han implantado, desde el momento que naciste.
poetry-siir ©
when oscar wilde said 'i am tired of myself tonight, i should like to be someone else' and when sylvia plath said 'i wish i knew what to do with my life, what to do with my heart' and when rilke said 'this heavy humanness'
Rainer Maria Rilke, Book of Hours: Love Poems to God; from ‘Gott spricht zu jedem nur, eh er ihn macht’, tr. Anita Barrows & Joanna Macy
“Do not be afraid to suffer, give the heaviness back to the weight of the earth; mountains are heavy, seas are heavy. Even those trees you planted as children became too heavy long ago - you couldn’t carry them now. But you can carry the winds… and the open spaces…”
— Rainer Maria Rilke, tr. by Robert Bly
