Merry Christmas!

(Based on this post.)

I just ... I’m really sorry for all of the sad AkuSai stuff I’m usually producing. By the way, no, I’m still not dead. I hope you’re all doing great? :’)

Zersetzung // Decomposition

Okay, so. If becoming norted DOESN’T mean losing your free will, then what good would it do Xehanort to make Sora a vessel.

I am honestly so done with the Saix discourse around here.

Saix has Xehanort’s EYECOLOUR AND EARS for heaven’s sake. He is clearly at least influenced by Xehanort during his time in Org XIII. Not to mention he has a X carved into his forehead, X like keeping watch on people (see KH3D).

I always thought that Saix is losing more and more of himself to Xehanort, but that’s only my interpretation of course. He’s still at least partially himself, before his death in KH2, yes. He did terrible things, yes. I’m not saying those should be forgotten.

But please don’t forget, that he was also in a terrible situation and he was slowly losing his only support (= Lea). Situations have a huge impact on our decisions and behaviour, which has close to NOTHING to do with our personality. Feel free to google the fundamental attribution error on that one. Does this justify what he did? Not at all. Does this mean he shouldn’t be forgiven? Not. At. All. If he is willing to repent, then let him do it. EVERYONE DESERVES A SECOND CHANCE.

Then again, I’d like to take a look at the “terrible things” Isa/Saix did. The main problem I see is his behaviour towards Roxas and Xion, who would have needed support and whose situations were clearly made worse by him. Keep in mind that he deeply believes he doesn’t feel any emotions and nobody else around him does either. The definition of empathy (according to Dorsch, Lexikon der Psychologie [translated]) is the cognitive understanding and affective reciprocation of the assumed emotions of another being. Of course Saix doesn’t have any.

The “terrible things” I don’t understand, are those other people see in his interactions with Axel? Roxas and Xion hurt Axel’s mental state way more than Saix, not on purpose of course, but I strongly doubt Saix’ goal was to hurt Axel either. Saix and Axel are ARGUING. Axel doesn’t trust Saix and vice versa. Saix is angry, he’s sad, while he doesn’t acknowledge any of it. He tries to keep Axel close with their shared goal. With pressure, yes, which he didn’t have to, but they are still arguing, remember. There’s still a strong, unresolved conflict in between them. Don’t try to tell me, you’re always kind and caring in an argument, dear haters. Because BY SHARING HATE YOU ALREADY ARE CAUSING DAMAGE TO OTHER PEOPLE. I felt uneasy and irritated, I had sleepless hours thanks to those Saix hate posts. YOU caused me harm with your unnecessary discourse.

So what does this say about you? Shouldn’t you be forgiven?

ConHon entry I did for @ribbitsplace at AkiCon this sunday! Sorry, if I was acting weird, I was just super caught off guard. 

This made me flip through my old ConHon once I was back home and – wow, it really is time to bring that tradition back.

Things that make me feel like posting on Tumblr is actually still worth the effort:

THANK YOU SO MUCH for your tags, they make my day!! <3

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AkuSaiMonth 2022: July 8 - August 7

Welcome to AkuSaiMonth! A month of celebrating AkuSai & LeaIsa! It's been a hard two years, but at least ASM is back, this time with a new host (and with permission of the original creator)!

AkuSaiMonth 2022 Bingo

Similar to 2015, we will be playing bingo again, but this time with a twist: The bingo cards are randomized! Every participant will have their prompts in 1 of 30 different arrangements!

Where can I get the Bingo Card?

To claim your personal AkuSaiMonth 2022 Bingo card, click >> HERE! << Using the link on the same device and browser should (in theory) always lead to the same card. However, I would strongly recommend also saving the card by either using the print button on top or by making a screenshot.

Screenreader friendly bingo cards are available here: LINK. These are not randomized unfortunately, but you can still pick one (of three) at random! Please let me know if you run into any problems!

See the end of the post for a plain text list of the prompts in alphabetical order.

And here is one example Bingo card: You can use this one as well of course, but give the randomized cards a chance!

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How does it work?

The goal is to get one "Bingo!" during the month (Jul 7 – Aug 8) by filling 5 prompts in a row, column or diagonal. 

This could mean one post every week, for example:

Post 1: Friday, July 8 (IsaLea Day)

Post 2: Saturday, July 16

Post 3: Saturday, July 23

Post 4: Sunday, July 31

Post 5: Sunday, August 7 (AkuSai Day) -> Bingo! <3

You are of course allowed to do less than five prompts (one is perfectly fine! <3) or even fill out the entire bingo card (I wish I had your time management skills)!

Rules:

Posting Rules

Tag your works as #akusaimonth and #asm22

Mention @akusaimonth, so I can't miss your work!

You can fill as many prompts as you want at whatever schedule works for you!

The goal is to achieve one "Bingo", but this is meant as motivation only; it's not an obligation or restriction!

You can start and end your participation at any time!

Content Rules

All forms of content are allowed, including but not limited to fanfiction, fanart, edits, videos, music, …

The "/" in some prompts means you can use either or multiple of the terms

All prompts are open for interpretation, there's no right or wrong way to use any of them!

You can stay within the framework of canon or create AUs or crossovers or whatever you want, everything is great!

All content has to be made by you! Stolen fan work is NOT allowed.

If you want to include fan content made by other people in your edit/video/… you have to get permission first and add credit to the original creator/s!

Official material can be used with no restrictions

NSFW Rules

NSFW is allowed!

Please post visual NSFW under a "Read More"

NSFW content will be reblogged with an #nsfw tag

FAQ

Who is behind the event? Original creator and host from 2014 – 2019 is the wonderful @misomilk! This year's host is @herzblutrose

I lost my card! If you remember your Bingo Card ID, then that's absolutely no problem. Let me know and I'll give you a permalink to the card you pulled!

What does prompt (...) mean? It means whatever you want it to mean! Have fun with it!

Other questions? Send me an ask!

Plain text prompts in alphabetical order:

Animals

Beach

Breakfast

Dark / Light

Fingers Running Through Hair

Flowers / Garden

Free Space

Gala / Ball

Holding While the Other Cries

Home

Keepsake / Precious Memory

Nobodies / Somebodies

Past / Present / Future

[Quote from the games]

Shopping

Skateboarding / Sports

Smoke and Mirrors

[Song Lyrics]

Sun & Moon / Fire & Water

Tales / Stories

Tarot / Cards

Tears / Scars

Thunderstorm

Whispers / Dreaming

You Have Changed

AKUSAIMONTH: DAYTIME MOON Day 1: Favourite Scene

[ He was  w e a k . ]

… he says, while showing so much sadness, disguised as anger, as despise. I don’t know what he thinks about in this moment, which memories come to his mind, yet it is easy to see the grief he denies feeling.

I'm sorry @indecisivepsyche, but this is way too funny to leave it in the tags.

What is he like behind closed doors, when no one is around?

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“I’m the one who killed my mentor.”

Happy UR-1 incident day (October 7, 2020)!! He knows what awaits him.

AKUSAIMONTH: BERSERK Day 10: SET C - “FREE SPACE”

“It won’t be.” "Huh?" "It won't be okay, unless we make it. "You have a plan?" "Not yet. We don't know enough. Our only chance at the moment is to play along." "So, you do have a plan." "I doubt it's worth calling it that." "Pft, whatever. Don't be so grim, Isa. We can do this, right!"

I felt like falling. It was a vertigo, things were keeping to blur before my eyes. It was hard to keep myself together at that time. Being with you helped. Apparently I was the only one struggeling with this. I know for sure that you didn't. Then again, I was also the only one who had had an X carved into his forehead. 

It was incredible how fast the wound had healed – or rather, how fast it had scarred.

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