I Was Gonna Write More But Labrinth Rips Too Hard So Now I Just Wanna 🌬️ And Bop.

Sorry you weren't allowed to shine like you deserved. You did look amazing btw, I know it's hard to love yourself or even bear it sometimes.

At least you got to enjoy 7 days of it before they pulled the rug out from under you.

At least no one's holding a gun to your head anymore.

Guilt and fear will no longer win.

When I write as fast as I post them in the now what I see gorgeous stream of crazy conscious thought with subconscious neurons firing at F1 racing speed, cuz I guess I do need to drive to survive. You need a drive to survive because you know you don't have one. And that's pretty fucking sad guys. But not as sad as I feel right now for what you did to us.

I am sitting outside and writing. Finally. Is it a sitting outside and smoking my lungs out and during myself to jump?.

Sorry that was out of your depth. Can't imagine how difficult this new version of me must be

I truly hope you don't read any of this because I am speaking in anger, though it is currently my truth and exactly how I feel because like I said, it's all streams of thought that happened very fast. The fact that people can keep up with my messages when I'm voice typing them and they're reading them whenever they can, goes to show that not everyone communicates the same way. We need to be more understanding when people feel like they've discovered better ways of feeling like themselves in the world instead of hiding themselves to pretend like they're like every fucking person. The autistic kids always taught me more than I could have ever taught them, because I could never speak as quickly as they could in the little subtle movements and layers of behaviors that we fought every day to understand and supposedly fix so they could fit into.

I always saw the beauty in them like a lot of other people didn't. I always always one of the people who stayed late and came early. Not because I was getting paid for it because I damn sure wasn't. Even though it was a good work and work for every fucking supervisor and that company for 5 years and then never managed even get above them even though I could have done at least a few of their jobs better if not least not as bad. Or as bad. Whichever one is not as painful for you because I'm not trying to be mean, this is just how I feel at this moment. And then my change the next moment.

Is why a babble, because I know when I say something wrong and I can edit and change myself immediately. So my fault you have to type it out and then read it over 500 times to cash the edits. I make 500 times in a millisecond as the words tumble out of my mouth like diarrhea.

But this one I'm proud of. All poop is valid.

G YAMAZAWA – 1990 (Interlude) Lyrics | Genius Lyrics

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G YAMAZAWA – 1990 (Interlude)

[Chorus] / When I was a young boy, and I heard that bass kick / Then I heard that high hat, then I heard that tape deck / Spinnin' like the

I always thought I wanted to be the energizer bunny

Because I forgot I could always bigly outdick energy all over my "haterz" lol.

Just didn't think I'd have to use that horrible joke on you. But I guess you inspired it. So jokes on me. Just like you are. But I'm washing you off silently in my own stream away from this horrible city that you love more than me.

And now I won't feel crazy telling that to people because they'll just keep her reminding me of all the things you've bought me and all the things you've helped me do, because that's true. But it's also true that I was not for the last 5 years even though I thought I was the happiest and I was in a way because I was closest to my happiness than I'd been in a long time.

Just like you were to this but I never let you push my button

Because even though I hated the world, there were too many people and things in it even though I hate people and prefer animals. As we all know, I just have to make sure everyone knows again because that has never changed and never will sorry because people suck please read previous posts for contacts because I'm done giving it without people asking. Because they're going to think what they think. Anyways, and I'll never be able to cover every atom of my thought. Because every time I try people call me manic which is so funny to me because it makes them feel so small to me. I love it.

In the best part is I can't even help myself

But you push the button first. You've been created it. I just didn't see what you were doing behind my back. Because I trusted you so much, I gave you my fleshiest bits. Like cats. That's why they're the best. Because you can actually trust them. Because you can't trust them. And we both know that. At least now you do too.

It's like those magic eye pictures.

I heard data gets you hard 😏

If Rupi Kaur can find her fanbase, I sure as hell stand a chance ya?

Welcome to my graveyard.

Here lay the people I gave more than an iota of attention to.

Because I chose to.

Unfortunately, some people think I need them when I'm depressed.

Because I have lost my power so much. And now you have too.

Thank goodness for both of us, me the most 🤙🏽✌🏽

Excited to finally start living and enjoying the city it's meant to be enjoyed.

Hope you all finally find some piece and quiet here.

I have 🖤

My head is a lot less noisy without you.

Which side is worth saving first?

On exit wounds

Man, I'm a lucky ass witchbitch.