"You can't be a system only 1% of the world is" Yeah well only 1% of the world has green eyes and they are fucking everywhere
And the world will crucify me for being the man I wish to be.
They see a child lost in the war of the world
They see a monster destroying the body of a beautiful little girl.
I'm not 7 anymore.
And I've always known what I am
I'm a man, forced to grow up in a life others made me live.
And I will always be a man.
You can rip the skin from my body, and strip me of my bones
But I'll always know
You can suffocate me and cover my mouth as I scream out
But I'll always know.
And you'll always know, what I am.
You can fight me every step of the way, but I'm still a man
Your words mean nothing to me.
If they bury me in a grave with a headstone of the little girl they think I am.
I'll claw my way out of the wood and soil
I'm not a little girl
I was never a girl
I'm not 7 anymore
I'm not 12
I'm not 15
Im me
And I'll always be me.
And I'm a man.
I will cry until I can't anymore
And when they try to drown me in my own tears
I'll kick and scream
I refuse to go silently the way they want me to
I'm a man
And I will never be the little girl they wanted.
When you tell people you have DID and they instantly say "like that Split movie." Im going fucking explode dude its nothing like that.
Happy birthday to me and here's some drawings
Being a system is sometimes being called an inconsistent asshole who can't commit for his life. When in reality your 8 guys in one body DESPERATELY trying to function and everyone keeps forgetting what they said they'd do....
To die in a world where the only things that could ever love you without judgment being the stars
And even then the stars died
If blood is thicker than water
Who's to say blood cannot be falsified
I am a man loving a man
I cannot have because the world hates lovers
History will only ever kill the ones you love and write of your victories
Failures don't get written in the history books unless your what the world has deemed evil and monstruous enough to be taught about.
I've been trying to work on this a comic with Arcade and Infernal. However my shoulder i'm in physical therapy for is really really sore. It's causes me too much discomfort to draw for long or even write without having to just stop. It's taking way longer than i want to draw the comic and finish the fic. RIP my ability to function.
So im writing for my courier and arcade and losing my absolute mind. Like im writing it but how am i writing this idk. I forgot that writing is fun. also its horrifically gay with the most sickeningly sweet fluff drowning in gore as the descriptors. I NEED to share this once it's done.
I hate amatonormativity I just want to tell my friends I love them without having to worry or feel weird :(