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why do fathers always give us some sort of trauma because of their anger issues

tbh our life was better when you’re not here

i miss my pandemic playlist, I'm literally trying to make a playlist with the songs I was obsessed with during the lockdown

Man, college is hard. Sometimes I still think about the times when I was still in highschool. I was always with my friends; laughing and making memories each day.

Now, they're not even here with me in the same city, they left the city for college and it hurts because I never imagined myself being alone in this journey. I always thought that we'd all be together.

It's kind off weird seeing my old post's on this account y'know. Some post's were about me not knowing what to do in life, i read that I wanted to be a lawyer but 2021 self, your 2023 self would like to say-- sadly you're not gonna be a lawyer anymore instead you took up nursing for college.

I used to post about my junior high school friends but I would also appreciate my senior high school friends who were literally the reason why I survived my senior year.

Now we're college students living in different places and attending different schools, I'll surely miss all of our bonding moments and the usual things we do all together.

I can't believe that my last post on this account I was still a senior in high school but now, I'm going to be a freshman in college

i love my new friends, i love them a lot

i miss the old us.

I wish we all stayed at the same school.

i miss my friends

to that person who sexually harassed me I hope you fucking die soon you motherfucker

It's the 7th anniversary of EXO-Ls. The strongest fandom in the kpop scene. The fandom that had suffered a lot and literally had a rollercoaster of emotions all through out the years. May we continue to be strong and continue supporting our boys, EXO.

❤

A message to myself 5 years from now.

Hmmm....

Please be happy in whatever you do.

I hope that you are happy in whatever decision you make and that you don't have any regrets.

Also I hope that you have money so that you have a crying session because you can't buy things you like. Learn from your past self

Just be happy please. And enjoy your life.

:)

sunday | June 20,2021

Hello again. I'm back.

So, life has been problematic lately. Or not, whatever. I'm turning into a shs student next school year, yet I still don't know what I wanna do. Do I want to become a lawyer or not? It's such a difficult decision as it will be my occupation in the future. Why can't life be just easy. Why does life have to fuck me up like this.

Also along with that issues, I just hate my insecurities. The pimples on my face and me being fat. It's actually embarrassing for me to ask money from my parents where in fact they should sustain my needs as I never asked to be born. Why can't I be an adult already and earn money. Why can't life give me just pure happiness.

This was written by a mentally unstable hana milet at night

I don't know if I'm gonna be happy that my parents allowed me to transfer to a different school or not.

The reason why I wanna transfer to a different school is that I am not liking the school system in the school I am currently in.

The school that I can possibly transfer in has a better school system but it is much more expensive.

I worry that my parents will have a hard time as the school tuition is much higher. And also my older brother is going to college, as we know college is expensive.

I don't really want my parents to have a hard time paying the bills.

Sigh* what do I do...

I don't know if I'm gonna be happy that my parents allowed me to transfer to a different school or not.

The reason why I wanna transfer to a different school is that I am not liking the school system in the school I am currently in.

The school that I can possibly transfer in has a better school system but it is much more expensive.

I worry that my parents will have a hard time as the school tuition is much higher. And also my older brother is going to college, as we know college is expensive.

I don't really want my parents to have a hard time paying the bills.

Sigh* what do I do...

In every household there is always a favorite child.

sigh* wbk...

Hi.

Today is valentine's day

I don't really have any plans for the day

I just want to be alone.

But my mind wants to see somebody,

But I just can't .

It's like I want it to happen but at the same time I don't want it to happen.

Again,

Happy Valentine's Day, self.

I've been having nostalgic feels by listening to troye sivan's song called h a p p y l i t t l e p i l l

Yesterday was my birthday.

I was very unlike my old one's.

I was greeted by my friend's and a few relatives.

I did not have a celebration

It was just like it was a normal day

No cakes

Nor even just cooking a feast or buying food for me

It was like nothing.

I expected that my parent's would give me money as we did not celebrate my birthday.

But I did not receive any.

I was not how I imagined it.

I was planning to buy my hamster's some stuff

But i guess this is a part of growing up.

It was a sad day for me.

I cried

And cried.

Happy Birthday to me i guess.

Okinawa by 92914

Is such an aesthetically pleasing song.

Right know it's full moon.

I can clearly see it from my window.

It's circle and bright.

I wanna be at the moon

I wanna be with the moon.

I'm just here in my bed.

Admiring it's beauty.

While listening to some music I like.

You and your young heart.

Take care of that,

For it is lovely, but

Fragile.

Chen's new song 'Hello' express many emotions.

As he got many hate just because he got married and had a baby.

That's such a odd reason for hating someone and sending then death threats. Can those anti's just mind their own business. It's not like their idol's are gonna them anyways.

I mean it's normal to be shocked because of the sudden news but why does it have to be in that extent.

It affected Chen a lot.

When I watched the behind the scenes of his music video 'Hello', he didn't have a genuine smile anymore. Also he was so conscious of his surroundings. It was like he was scared of people.

I hope anti's would stop hating on him. He did nothing wrong.

2009-2013

Those were the years that I felt no judgement. Everything was free. I was free. I had the freedom to do anything I wanted. Those years were also peaceful. No major happenings. It was my most peaceful years.

I was still a kid during these years but it felt wonderful. It was magical. It was anything that I could imagine.

There was no new modern technology that time. There were no phones. It was just me and my childhood friends playing under the hot sun. Those were the days that I enjoyed most of life. Just being able to play outside was a big achievement to me.

There were a lot of stories, a lot of laughter, a lot of new relationships with new encountered friends, and most importantly there were a lot of memories.

If I were to go back in time. I would always choose those years. Those years has a special place in my heart ♡.

Late night thoughts

Will I ever experience the city life?

Will I ever experience going to college in a strangely new place. Far from my current life. Also far from my family.

If ever I pass that university will they allow me to go, or more like will I allow myself to be far from my family most especially from my mom. Far from my life in the province.

If ever it will happen , will I be able to experience my dreams. Will I finally be able to go out at night like go out on a night out with college friends. Will I be able to have a random stroll at 2 or 3 AM. Will I finally have a boyfriend??

I have a lot of dreams but one question is still roaming around my brain.

Will I pass?

Or

Am I capable with my skills because it is such a big university a lot of people there are probably smart.

Am I even smart enough to pass the entrance exams?

People around me says that I am smart. But up to what extent?