Fuck recovery. I wanna cut.
I'm so sad about the fact that my knife can't cut me deep because it starts to hurt so much... I wish it didn't hurt, so I could cut myself to fat!!!
I wish, one day on maths lesson I could stand up, and stab myself!!!
the man in stripes and glasses, marketland, one weird tip, angry people are kinda underrated. Like... I always see people talking about touch-tone telephone, cabinet man, amnesia was her name etc. not like it isn't deserved, like these songs are amazing (cmon, I listen to spirit phone everyday on repeat) but daaaaamn... I've never seen people talking about the man in stripes and glasses, marketland etc...
Am I disabled if I have to be homeschooled because of my chronic illness? Asking out of curiosity.
Sometimes, I think that it'd be better, if I'd be a man. I could look like I want, I wouldn't have boobs, and periods, and people would see in me personality, not just boobs and vagina. I hate fact of being girl. I hate fact of that people will refer to me as she/her even when I told them to refer me as they/them/it/its.
I wish, when I commit suicide someone will write song about me, or become an example why you should give attention to your kid. Even few tribute groups will be enough.
I have Facebook acc, so maybe, one day I'll start livestream where I'll kms... But for now we'll just wait.
I wish I was hated in all my social media, so I could cut myself, not thinking about that someone is caring for me.
English in school sucks, I prefer 2 lessons of physics more, than this shit
To be honest, after years of searching, trying to find my diagnosis, I just... Stopped caring about this. I even started to like this thing, I know, it harms me, but do I want to treat it? No. It's a part of me, that I like.
To be honest, I feel kinda remorseful for making posts with hashtags like "disabled" and others. Why? Because thinking about my diseases constantly only worsens my mental health. I literally was about to go back to cutting or mutilating my body. Plus, I don't really think that I'm like... Disabled? Like my symptoms aren't enough to be called disabled or something... So, I think that I won't be making posts like this anymore... Or do them rarely. Hope y'all will understand. Thanks for being with me in those times. Take care of yourself.
A prophet of worm worshippers. (Definitely not a guy with athetosis!!)
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