Day 1: Define Yourself

Day 1: Define yourself

I finally got around to doing this. I've decided I have to be in the mood to write/blog, which I am, obviously. Right now I'm listening to the cast of Jersey Shore yelling at each other. Haha, I think I will put what I'm listening to in each post. So anyway, I'm supposed to define myself. I'm not sure I can. Does anyone truly know who they are? At least I don't. I'll do my best. The top of this page pretty much defines it. "I'm a mixed up kid in a mixed up world." That's how I feel, at least. I feel so different from everyone. It's so annoying. I hate it. I wish I could be everything that I'm not. With that said, I am a thinker. I am a planner. I am analytical and intellectual. Which could be to blame for why I get upset all the time. Ugh. Sometimes I wish I could just turn my brain off. Also, I think about life in the strangest ways. I feel that if I spilled my whole life story, no one would understand. All I want is what everyone else wants. To be accepted. To feel needed. To feel like you mean something to someone. Which I usually don't :/ The reason for all of this negativity is because I hate life at the moment. Life is just... so annoying. I thought being a senior meant it was impossible to feel this way. Guess I was wrong... Which leads me to think that no matter how muych you have, you can always be upset. Is that correct? Who knows. Now I'm getting off topic about defining myself. Oops. I don't know. I come from a broken family, which I believe has me made me the way I am. I get jealous of others easily. As I mentioned, I wish I could be everything that I'm not, as well as have everything I don't have. I frequently attempt to live in the past. Which makes life very difficult. It seems as though I can never be content with the present. So now I try to look forward to the future. I have my whole life ahead of me. I can only hope that my hopes and dreams will come true. Until then, I guess I have to enjoy being young. So yeah, I think I'm done with this post. I totally failed at defining myself. Uhh. Anywho, while I was writing all of this, I decided that I put a random fact at the end of each post. Soo... here's my random fact. I miss my college friends!!! So much. Until next time! (Which will hopefully be soon). I don't know if I'll be able to update this everyday. But I will try. Peace.